Can I really Lose Weight?

Out All Day

2011-06-02T15:39:00.000-07:00

We were supposed to go bike riding. Tee suggested changing trails, but where we rent the bikes is right around the street from the trail. The other trails are out of the way. We would have to ride in heavy traffic to get there and that's not safe.

Instead of bike riding, we walked at my favorite spot Lake Bottom. There were four of us and the temperature was over 90 degrees. It was too hot. The first lap around, I walked the stairs 3 times. We walked the half again and I finished all 5 stairs.

After that, we went to eat lunch. No, it wasn't healthy, but one has to eat right? When we finished eating we set outside the restaurant and talked. My friend suggested going to do the stairs again, I was with that. We walked 5 more times, so to total, I did 10 stairs.

My lunch
meatloaf
mashed potatoes
black eyed peas
macaroni and cheese

Don't feel hungry. I also have bought healthy snacks. There are strawberries and cherries in the refrigerator. Another thing, I have been cooking healthy meals. No, I haven't lost the weight, but I am making changes.

Looking back over the post, which haven't been many, it's the same thing. Trying to stay below 170 lbs. I am doing something wrong. To make it worse picking up these bad habits and increasing others. 36 is around the corner and there are many unhealthy lifestyle changes that I have picked up. This is too sad, the changes have taken a toll on me overall.

Things will get better, they always due. Take it slow and remember the body is a machine and it will deteriorate.

181 Where Did This Come From?

2011-05-30T14:07:00.000-07:00

For the last few months, I have done nothing. Absolutely nothing. The other day my friends and I went bike riding. We rented our bikes and rode 19 miles to Ft. Benning from Downtown. Really needed that ride. Today, I walked the stairs at Columbus 5 times. The other day, I actually stretched, haven't done that in a while either. So not going to make any plans to get this weight off just going to do what I can do to make it work.

Another thing, changed what I have been eating. Been eating unhealthy snacks like donuts and chips and dip. Make a change. Starting to cook. Got to stay healthy about to be 36 in a few months. Healthy lifestyle!

The Weight has been Staying Down

2010-11-09T05:50:00.000-08:00

Time keeps moving and this weight loss thing is very interesting. Due to some mishaps in my life, my weight has been staying below 170 lbs. So proud of that, but not proud of the reason why. The highest my weight has been is 172 lb. After a few days it's back at 161-165 lbs. Truthfully, I need to go shopping, been giving away many pants and skirts. Plus, the weather has changed.

Currently, I need to do the GM Diet because I have not been eating healthy. Not at all. Need to clean out my system. Taking medicine, not eating, eating the wrong things, all of these things does not do the body good. There are so many things that I want to avoid in my life. For instance, cancer, diabetes, heart attack, stroke, high blood pressure, etc. I don't need any of these things in my life.

Even though, eating the right foods does help prevent many illnesses we must remember that stress can cause issues as well. Do what you can to eliminate drama in your life. Try to live a peaceful and caring life. Remember we are a whole body, we must treat ourselves right completely.

During this time in my life, I started being motivated and doing something physical daily. Now, all I do is come home and do nothing. Bad habits have reared their ugly face. All things in moderation. No stretching, no walking, no bike riding, no yoga, no accupuncture, no nothing, but heartache and tears. This entire situation has aged me. I see it in my eyes and others do too.

Needs
Ride bike trainer at least 5-10 minutes a day
stretch daily
start yoga again
go back to accupuncture
squats
leg raises

I will get myself back together. I just don't know when!

Weight has Dropped

2010-07-14T13:13:00.000-07:00

My weight is 166.

I have been walking at Lakebottom and doing the stairs five times in front of Columbus High School. On the weekends my friends and I have been renting bikes. We ride on the River Walk. The second time we rode all the way to the entrance of Ft. Benning that was almost 19 miles.

For lunch, a shrimp and strawberry salad.

It has been months since I have written to this blog. I will try to do better. Writing the exercises and my meals will help.

This evening I am supposed to go to water aerobics with a friend.

Celebrations:
size 10 Rockstar jeans from Old Navy
size 10 jeans from Old Navy
size 10 dress

This is the first time I have been in a 10 in almost 10 years. That is crazy and yes time does keep on moving. Chaning my daily behaviors has helped maintain my weight. Continue to do what's is best for my body.

Can you Believe it?

2009-12-11T10:48:00.000-08:00

Do you know that I have finally gotten below 170 lbs. It has been a long time coming. The current weight is 166 and I contribute it to the GM Diet.

I did the following weight loss diet program and it worked wonders. I strongly recommend anyone desirous of loosing weight to start on this program immediately. Best part of the program is that it is doable! --- B. H. Jajoo

General Motors: Weight Loss Diet Program

The following diet and health program was developed for employees and dependents of General Motors, Inc. and is intended for their exclusive use. This program was developed in conjunction with a grant from U.S. Department of Agriculture and the Food and Drug Administration. It was field tested at the Johns Hopkins Research Centre and was approved for distribution by the Board of Directors, General Motors Corp. at a general meeting on August 15, 1985. General Motors Corp. wholly endorses this program and is making it available to all employees and families. This program will be available at all General Motors Food Service Facilities. It is management's intention to facilitate a wellness and fitness program for everyone.

This program is designed for a target weight loss of 10-17 lbs per week. It will also improve your attitudes and emotions because of its cleansing systematic effects.

The effectiveness of this seven day plan is that the food eaten burn more calories than they give to the body in caloric value.

This plan can be used as often as you like without any fear of complications. It is designed to flush your system of impurities and give you a feeling of well being. After seven days you will begin to feel lighter because you will be lighter by at least 10 lbs. You will have an abundance of energy and an improved disposition.

During the first seven days you must abstain from all alcohol. You must drink 10 glasses of water each day.
Day One All fruits except bananas. Your first day will consist of all the fruits you want. It is strongly suggested that you consume lots of melons the first day. Especially watermelon and a loupe. If you limit your fruit consumption to melons, your chances of losing three lbs. on first day are very good.
Day Two All vegetables. You are encouraged to eat until you are stuffed with all the raw or cooked vegetables of your choice. There is no limit on the amount or type. For your complex carbohydrate, you will start day two with a large baked potato for breakfast. You may top the potato with one pat of butter.
Day Three A mixture of fruits and vegetables of your choice. Any amount, any quantity. No bananas yet. No potatoes today.
Day Four Bananas and milk. Today you will eat as many as eight bananas and drink three glasses of milk. This will be combined with the special soup which may be eaten in limited quantities.
Day Five Today is feast day. You will eat beef and tomatoes. Eat two 10 oz. portions of lean beef. Hamburger is OK. Combine this with six whole tomatoes. On day five you must increase your water intake by one quart. This is to cleanse your system of the uric acid you will be producing.
Day Six Beef and vegetables. Today you may eat an unlimited amount of beef and vegetables. Eat to your hearts content.
Day Seven Today your food intake will consist of brown rice, fruit juices and all the vegetables you care to consume.

Tomorrow morning you will be 10-17 lbs. lighter than one week ago. If you desire further weight loss, repeat the program again. You may repeat this program as often as you like, however, it is suggested that you are allowed two glasses of white wine in addition to the instructions on the program. You may substitute champagne for white wine. Under no circumstances are you to drink any other alcoholic beverages with the exception of beer which is allowed. Any liquor (bourbon,vodka, rum) is forbidden. Cream drinks are especially forbidden. You may have an occasional cordial such as creme de menthe or schnapps, but you must always limit yourself to two drinks. If you wine, drink only wine that day. If you have beer, drink only beer that day, etc. Alcohol adds empty calories to your diet. However, after the first week it will help your digestion and settle your stomach.

G.M.'S Wonder Soup
The following soup is intended as a supplement to your diet. It can be eaten any time of the day in virtually unlimited quantities. You are encouraged to consume large quantities of this soup.
28 oz, Water, 6 Large Onions, 2 Green Peppers, Whole Tomatoes (fresh or canned), 1 Head Cabbage, 1 Bunch Celery, 4 Envelopes Lipton Onion Soup Mix, Herbs and Flavouring as desired.

Additional Comments
Vegetables as may be taken in the form of a salad if desired. No dressing except malt, white or wine vinegar, squeezed lemon, garlic, herbs. No more than one tea spoon of oil.

You have been given a recipe for the WONDER SOUP which can be eaten in unlimited quantities. This soup is a supplement while you are on the program and it should be a pleasure to eat. Not everyone likes cabbage, green peppers, calory etc. This recipe is not inflexible. You may substitute vegetables according to your taste. You may add any vegetables you like: asparagus, peas, corn, turnips, green beans, cauliflower, etc. Try to stay away from beans (lima, pinto, kidney, etc.), however, because they tend to be high in calories even though they are very good for you.

Beverages you may consume while on the program :
Water (flavoured with lemon/lime if desired).
Club Soda is OK.
Black Coffee. No cream or cream substitute. No sugar or sweetness.
Black Tea = Herb or Leaf.
Absolutely nothing else except the fruit juices which are part of day seven. No fruit juices before day seven.
How and Why It Works
Day One you are preparing your system for the upcoming programme. Your only source of nutrition is fresh or canned fruits. Fruits are nature's perfect food. They provide everything you could possibly want to sustain life except total balance and variety.
Day Two starts with a fix of complex carbo-hydrates coupled with an oil dose. This is taken in the morning for energy and balance. The rest of day two consists of vegetables which are virtually calorie free and provide essential nutrients and fibre.
Day Three eliminates the potato because you get your carbohydrates from the fruits. You system is now prepared to start burning excess pounds. You will still have cravings which should start to diminish by day four.
Day Four, bananas, milk and soup sound the strangest and least desirable. You're in for a surprise. You probably will not eat all the bananas allowed. But they are there for the potassium you have lost and the sodium you may have missed the past three days. You will notice a definite loss of desire for sweets. You will be surprised how easy this day will go.
Day Five, Beef and tomatoes. The beef is for iron and proteins, the tomatoes are for digestion and fibre. Lots and lots of water purifies your system. You should notice colourless urine today. Your allowance calls for the equivalent of five "quarter ponders". Do not feel you have to eat all this beef. You must eat the six tomatoes.
Day Six is similar to day five, Iron and proteins from beef, Vitamins and fibre from vegetables. By now your system is in a total weight loss inclination. There should be a noticeable difference in the way you look today, compared to day one.
Day Seven finished off the program like a good cigar used to finish off Victorian meals, except much healthier. You have your system under control and it should thank you for the flushing and cleaning you just gave it.

General Motors: Weight Loss Diet Program

Exercising For a Lifetime

2009-10-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

I started exercising about a month ago and now it is something that I look forward to doing. Volleyball season has started and I am the assistant coach. I jog five laps before practice when I am there. Exercising is something that I do and I really enjoy it. To be honest, I think I have been doing this consistently since the middle of September. There is a big difference in the way my clothes are fitting me. The jeans and pants aren't so tight and there is more room in the waist area. My face has even slimmed down. My goal is to be able to fit into a true 10, I think that would be 165 lbs. for me. Haven't been there in a long time. 10 years ago I was 24 years old, here I am 34, where did time go? What did I do with it? I don't want another 10 to go by and I am here where I am right now. Wow and I don't even say that word. My, my, my!

As for this exercise thing, I started by riding my bike trainer 5 minutes a day. Next, I moved up to 10 and 15 and so forth. I use my 10 lb. dumb bells to do some arm exercises. Leg lefts with the ball and squats with the weight or ball, it depends. I also started going to acupuncture and yoga once a week. That was very good for my overall body. Since volleyball doesn't end until December I can't do them anymore. I also sometimes do the stairs at the park. While in Atlanta at a conference, I used the stair stepper, elliptical, treadmill, and bike. It made me want my own personal gym.

I look forward to doing something daily, I do take a break every three days depending on how my mind or body feel. So this is something new to me, I haven't been here in a long time and it feels good.

Here I Go Again

2009-09-20T17:41:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time coming. Haven't been here since June. That is ashame. Starting tomorrow things will be different. Turning 34 has been a challenge and an eye opener for me. Over the last few years, I haven't been proud of myself. My plan is to take one day at a time and continue to do right by my body.

Even though I haven't been posting to the blog I am not to far off from my goals. Still wanted to be 165. Going to the acupuncturist has helped me to realize that I have to take some time out for myself. I rip and run all the time and never reward myself for the life that I live. All of that stops now.

At the acupuncturist, I was told that I need to lose a little weight because I have dead skin on the ball of my feet. She put the needles on the ball and sides of my feet. As soon as the needles were in my feet my entire body got extremely hot. She also put the needles in my neck for stress and energy. Truly, I feel better.

Tomorrow during lunch I will eat spaghetti, I will get up and cook something for breakfast even if it is just some bacon and a boiled egg. Dinner will consist of rice with chicken and broccoli . Waking up will be at 6 am. This will give me a chance to ride my bike trainer for 10 minutes. My body is where I dwell and I will not let it fail me.

I have also made a list of things I need to get checked when I go to my personal physician. I find it strange that the doctor doesn't check you for everything whenever you have an appointment.

This time, I will take it slow and lose at least 4 lbs. a week. I know it can be done, it is always up to me.

Celebrations

Have more room in my jeans

Now, I will post here at least once a week to let you know my progress. I am tired of being over weight and I know I can do it.

Can I Really Lose Weight?

2009-06-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

Weight: 181 lbs.
Down: 2 lbs.

That is the burning question. I know I can, but what seems to be the hold up? To be honest, I really can't say what the problem is. All I need to do is do what is best for me at this moment. What that is beats me.

All of the overeating has got to come to an end. Today starts the beginning of doing what is best for me health wise. No overeating, exercise, healthy choices all starts today. I can get this done along with getting the lien off of my credit report and obtaining my PhD. I can do it, I know I can.
I wrote out a schedule for exercise. Will do what I can today. Supposed to do a workout on Fit TV, walk the stairs, arm exercises, and stretch. Ok!

Food
3 sausage links and 1 scrambled egg

Me at 181, I will try to post pictures daily to see the weight loss. This is crazy! Nothing will change unless I want it to. That is what makes this so interesting, when will I finally be tired of being this way. Change must come, but when and at what expense?

Tired can you tell?

Zeta team, I am doing what I can with what I have back to the start weight now I have to lose 16 more pounds.

Dire Straights

2009-06-03T13:03:00.000-07:00

Weight: 183 lbs.

Here we go, I joined Man vs. Debts PF Bloggers Weight Loss Challenge. As you see, I haven't posted in over a month. There has been many events going on. When I joined the challenge I was 2 lbs. lighter. This is the end. It is no longer me, I am working with a team.

Zeta Team
Krista
http://change-jar.blogspot.com
-20
Dusty
http://chasingthebull.info
-20
Bettsonly
http://financialsuccessismine.blogspot.com
-16
Jorge
http://independentminded.org
-11
SavingDiva
http://savingforhome.blogspot.com
-8

I look forward to working with you all. Work with me, I need all the support and motivation that I can get.

I will post daily my challenges and celebrations. Working with what I have.

15 Days Ago Today

2009-04-30T19:39:00.000-07:00

Weight: 177 lbs.

This is a true visual of how my weight goes up and down. To be exact, 2 weeks ago today I weighed 177. I need to just let it go. Let the weight go and keep it down.

Food
1/2 bbq chicken
potatoe salad
1 bbq beef rib
Nature's Way bar

I also stretched. Will see what the morning brings.

Celebrations
Lost 4 lbs in 2 days (must continue)

Time and Time Again

2009-04-29T05:12:00.000-07:00

Weight: 179 lbs.

Here I go again on my on! Been here several times since January and I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. What is it going to take? Yesterday, I thought about fasting. Maybe it was only a thought.

Food Yesterday
2 small cans of v8
Progresso chicken noodle soup
pieces of turkey (small)
brownie
2 slices of pepperoni pizza

If this would be considered a fast, so be it. Excitement should be one of my feelings, but I don't know if it is. Yes, I am down 2 lbs. Honestly, I was trying to go for 3, but that didn't work. Exercise is something that I haven't been doing. Time changes things. At the beginning of April I was sick and still coughing up stuff, so that is mainly why I haven't been exercising. Truthfully, I just haven't felt like it. Weight can be lost if I eat less calories. That is my plan. This morning I did 10 squats. What the afternoon has to offer as for exercise the day will have to bring tell.

I am tired and need a break. Spending time doing something physical is always a benefit. Sunday we went walking at the River Walk. That was relaxing and allowed me to get some type of exercise in.

Today is another day and I am not going to eat that much. There is an event that I must attend Thursday after next. I have a gown to wear, but if I can't fit it I will have to purchase another one. That is not in the budget. Trying hard to achieve this weight loss goal. It can be done, but I don't want to go to the extremes. I think I may be there already.

Down with Fat and Up with Hope

2009-04-28T04:57:00.000-07:00

Weight: 181 lbs.

Blogs Purpose
This blog is supposed to be helping me, but I am not helping myself. Down with fat and up with hope is going to be my new phrase. There has to be some type of intervention. I am serious! What is it going to take for me to get this together. The answer is stay focused and don't lose sight of what I am really trying to do. This seems to be a repetitive thing for me. Will I ever get tired of losing (in this case gaining)?

Accountability
In my life, there has to be something that makes me be more accountable for my actions. I have said it before and I will say it again, it is so easy to let me down. Why is that so? I should be up on a pedestal looking high above and know that I can do anything that I put my mind too. It is not that easy. Today should be the day that I never look back. Get every aspect of my life in order and lose the weight. Ok, really trying to make those small steps. Purchased some V8. The small cans. This will be my breakfast.

It would be wrong for me to say that I am losing in every aspect of my life, but I am not. All other things look good. Also, the bad habits has me in a world of hurt. Not really that, but it sometimes gets out of control. Getting that together is another thing.

Weight loss for Me
Weight loss for me is something that I know I can do, it is just a matter of doing the right thing. Eating is a past time that I truly enjoy, but it has to be healthy eating. I am tall, but I don't have to be overweight. That is where I am today. Getting below 190 was a big deal for me. I got below 180, but it tends to go up and down. That seriously needs to stop! Again, I need to lose 16 lbs.

Fasting
This is drastic, but it has crossed my mind. Just going on a fast or something of those sorts. I need to do that for myself to cleanse my body of all of the impurities. It will also help me realize that food is something we need to sustain life, not for enjoyment purposes. If I do decide to fast, it will take much dedication. The fast will also clear my mind of all of the crap that is clogging up my thoughts. Clarity is needed! Fasting will not be easy, but the negative things will leave and open up a place of focus.

Success will that ever Be?
I get tired of not succeeding! Losing is such a hard thing to do, I can do it, but when will I get tired of going up and down. I get close, but never reach my goal weight! All I can do is shack my head. I will let you know what I decide to do as for the fast. It may not be a full fast, but something that will allow me to drink more and eat less.

Down With Fat: The emotional toll

2009-04-22T05:41:00.000-07:00

Down With Fat: The emotional toll

What is it Going to Take

2009-04-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

Weight: 177 lbs.

Proud, but What is it Going to Take?
Again, I have been here time and time again. I am tired of this. This being the ups and downs in the weightloss game. I am the key element in this endeavor. Food is a weakness for me, but sometimes it is worse then others. Honestly, I just want to get to my goal and get it over with. I feel like John at John is Fit when he wrote about being the Worst Weightloss Blogger. I started this because I thought it would help me in losing weight, but I have been up and down like a see saw and it is getting old. The temptation has to come to an end.

Every morning when I get up, I dreaded getting on the scale. It is a burden and sometimes a release. It makes me feel great when I have actually lost 1-2 lbs. On the other hand when I have gone up it is major disappointment. I rejoice in the loss and get emotional with the gain. I really don't know why because I truly can tell when I will gain or loss. It depends on what I have eaten and how much. It doesn't even take exercise for you to lose. I don't want this blog to be only about my low points because they aren't low all the time. It just saddens me when I have been here several times. I have to make a change, it is getting old and I am so far behind my goal date of March 31, what it is going on another month. What am I going to do?

Food
sausage and bacon
baked pork chop, broccoli with cheese, and baked potatoe
a little chicken and rice
Zaxby's grilled chicken salad with french dressing

Exercise
None

Learning from other Bloggers
I found John Is Fit and it has helped me realize that I am not alone. He lists many strategies in losing and gaining the weight, but overall he is very motivating. He has a list of other weightloss bloggers. I haven't gone to all of their sites, but I have checked out Down with Fat. This blog is about a man and women and what they go through to lose weight. I really like some of their ideas. One thing I am going to adopt is they have a break down of their rewards when they get to a certain weight. I think that is a good idea.

Always know you are not alone. You can do it. I am not going to say it will be easy because it won't. Free will is a main factor, but as long as you put your all into it, you will reap positive rewards. Even though I haven't gotten to my 165 lbs. I am no longer 190, that is success within itself. Be thankful for the little things, they lead to big ones.

Here I Go Again

2009-04-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

Weight: 178 lbs.

As the Days Go By
As the days go by, there are moments where my appetite is greater than others. I know what to contribute it too, but it is just a way of life. The weekends tend to be a breaker for me. I do well Monday-Thursday, but Friday-Sunday is always a downward slide. There are strategies that I can adopt to help me be successful, but as always I don't know where to begin. I'll say I can do it, but that word sabatoge does often appear.

Weigh Less
Honestly, I thought that I would have weighed more, but I don't. Let's see, keeping things in the manner that they are 13 lbs. to go. It seems so simple, but yet so hard.

Exercise What is That?
I haven't been exercising haven't felt like it. My clothes are fitting a little different. The jeans that I bought weekend before last aren't as tight as they were when I bought them. Any progress is better then none.

Stay Focused
All I have to do is keep the main thing the main thing. I am tired of being at this point, I want there to be less of me. I am proud of what I have accomplished, but it seems like a never ending battle. Somewhat of an obsession. One thing I can say is that looking at other weightloss blogs, this is something that goes on. Easy to put it on, but hard to take it off. I will continue to read what others have to say and know that I am not alone. The sad thing about it is that I really don't have that much weight to lose, but again it is so hard.

Food
1 sausage link
sausage ziti
1 1/2 baked porkchop with bread crumbs, broccoli and cheese, red baked potatoe

Exercise
None

Things are What you Make Them
Things are what you make them. I always say that, but I need to do more then say it I need to start living it. This weightloss thing can drive anyone crazy, but a good thing is that there are people that are doing and going through the same things. I am not alone. You are not either. Take one day at a time and know you will weigh less. Start with baby steps. Once a day eat a salad for lunch (substitute). Park farther away at the grocery store. Instead of putting mayonnaise on your sandwhich just use mustard. These are small steps that will work. It is up to you to make a change. Do that starting today!

I've Been Here Before

2009-04-16T16:03:00.001-07:00

Weight: 175.8 lb.

Proud, but doesn't Seem That Way
Not exactly at this weight, but lower than before. I am proud of my accomplishments. I am overjoyed with excitement, but my behavior doesn't show it. My mood does not seem as if I have lost anything. To be honest, I really don't know what the problem is. I think I may just be tired. Tired mentally and physically, but more so mentally.

Current Meal Plan
My food intake for the day was alright, not as good as it could be. I did an analysis of what is going on. Remember, I spoke of sabatoge a few blogs ago. It has reared its ugly head. My goal is so close, but o so far away. I will list what I ate and you will see what I am speaking of.

Food
2 slices of bacon
chili dog
2 Church's thighs
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

As I type, I am cooking dinner.
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

Question
Now the question of the day is do I eat what I have cooked or do I save it for tomorrow? Yes, I did eat and it was good. I ate the entire breast, some asparagus, and 1/3 of the sweet potatoe. On top of all that I don't feel good. I will not talk about that, but it is the truth.

Looking at my meal plan for the last week, I have been eating a lot of rice that has to change. More vegetables to my plan.

Weighing myself tomorrow may not happen. I don't need to be disappointed. I did it to myself I know, but still. It seems the weekend is always my downfall. Let the sabotage go!

Losing is Half the Battle

2009-04-15T05:23:00.000-07:00

Weight: 177 lbs.

I came down due to following my guidelines yesterday. I am proud. I know that you are supposed to eat, but when you are full from a previous meal what to do? I didn't eat dinner yesterday due to all of what I ate for lunch. I stopped and bought some chicken broth to drink, but I didn't need it because I was still full. I am proud of that. I have been here several times and I sabatoge myself often. This is what I am striving to not do this time. This time will be different I promise to myself. You know it is so easy to let yourself down. I wonder why that is so. Disappointment should not be my friend, but I know it very well. I think we need to discontinue our relationship. It only leads to heartache and pain. I don't need that at this point in my life. Moving forward is my biggest concern. Happiness will be my new friend.

Food
1 boiled egg and 1 slice of bacon
chili over rice and mixed vegetables
rice mixed vegetables with shrimp
thin slice of chocolate cake

Exercises
70 scissors
10 lunges with 10 lb. weights
various arm exercises
30 leg lifts with pilates ball
push ups on pilates ball
stretches
30 butt lifts

As always, as the day continue I will post more. Have a wonderful day! Day what you can with what you have. Be positive and positivity will follow. You deserve to be the best you possible. Don't hold on, let it go, it will be alright.

Celebrations
eyebrows waxed
10 minute massage in mall

How I Really Feel
I feel wonderful. I know I can be successful, it is just a matter of doing what is best for my overall health. As always, I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I feel that I need to do more, but there is no but it is a matter of staying focused and doing what is right. Tomorrow is another day and regardless of what it may bring I know that I can achieve my goals. If I don't lose, I will be disappointed but it is not the end of the world.

Coming Down, but will It Continue?

2009-04-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

Weight: 179 lbs.

Yesterday
Yesterday was a decent day, like I stated, I did eat too many chili dogs, but I am ok with that. The exercise that I did was well deserved and I am glad that I did it. I guess I could have rode my bike trainer longer, but at least I rode it, right?

Today
Today, I don't know what I will eat, but I think I have it under control. There are some chili dogs left. That is what I will eat for lunch, but I have brought rice and mixed vegetables too. That should work out.

When I get home. Bike trainer and more exercises. I may do a video it just depends on how I feel.

Food
1 boiled egg and slice of bacon
mixed vegetables with rice, 2 hot dogs with chili (no buns), fries, 3 slices of boston butt (small)

This was too much for lunch! I can see that! I don't know what or if I will eat dinner. If I do eat, it may just be broth or something light. I will have to see. Ok, I will not eat anything for dinner. Chicken or vegetable broth will be the food for the evening. I can do this.

I did what I said I was going to do. I didn't eat when I got home. Stopped by the store and bought the chicken broth, but I didn't drink it. See I can do good.

Exercises
35 scissors
20 lunges with 10 lb. weights
arm exercises (I will specify later)
30 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
15 leg raises

Challenges
The challenge of the day is doing what is best for my body. Things happen, but having a healthy lifestyle can prevent some of the illnesses that may occur.

As the day progresses like yesterday I will make adjustments to this post.

Overall, I know that what I eat today was not as healthy as it could have been. Temptation leads to weakness and indulgence.

Celebrations
I didn't eat when I got home. I know you need to eat, but I was full from what I ate for lunch. Regardless of the morning weight, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed when I get off. That will be a good treat, I may get accupuncture too. Will just have to see what the day brings.

Today Starts Another Day

2009-04-13T05:56:00.000-07:00

Weight: 181 lbs.

Food
2 boiled eggs 2 slices of bacon
Progresso 100 calorie chicken noodle soup

2 chili dogs and cool ranch chips

Exercises
50 squats

10 minute bike trainer

45 leg raises

50 scissors

arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

stretches

This Morning
When I got up this morning of course you know I didn't want too. I started cooking breakfast. I have a very busy day so I went ahead and cooked dinner too. Shrimp, rice, and mixed vegetables something light.

New Week
This is the start of a new week, a new me, and a new look on life. I know that it is what you make it, but it is so hard. I am just saying. Doing what is right is the biggest issue. Working out this morning I could have, but I didn't. When I finally get home, I am going to ride my bike and do leg lifts and scissors. That is the least I can do for having an active day.

When I get off from work, I have to tutor for an hour. After that I am going to the college to use the library to write this paper. I must get this done. Time is moving so fast. Only a month until school gets out. So ready for that.

Maintaining
I must maintain this weight thing. Stay below 175 is my goal. I would love to be able to get into a size 10 jeans. Long time coming.

After I finish all of my days work I will be back to talk about how my day actually went. I will also add to my food intake as the day progresses. Enjoy your life, you only have one.

My Day Overall

The day was slow, but I did get much done. I accomplished my exercise goals (I could have rode my bike longer). The only issue I would say is the two chili dogs, but adding exercise will benefit. I was supposed to drink the V8, but I didn't have a taste for that.

As always tomorrow is a new day and I will make the most of it. Make a change, that is what I plan to do.

Spring Break is Over

2009-04-12T18:39:00.000-07:00

I was sick for the beginning of Spring Break (Saturday-Thursday). I am not at 100%, but I am much better. We went to Atlanta for the weekend. That was fun, but during my illness I ate like I wasn't sick. That is ashamed, I know. On top of that I watched on the History Channel, The Seven Deadly. Gluttony was one of the ones I caught. It really made sense to me. Over eating is not healthy and can cause several issues. I don't want to get caught up in that. I know that we are all closer to dying, but it doesn't have to be food related.

During my sickness of course I didn't do any exercising. I weighed myself the other day and I was 177 lbs. That's not that bad.

Celebrations

bought a pair of Old Navy jeans size 14 long

bought a green tube dress

bought a rain coat

Food

bacon eggs and grits

lasagna

Wendy's chicken nuggets, small fries, bacon cheese burger, and chocolate frosty

noodles with 2 hot dogs

I will not talk about what I ate over the weekend.

Weight

182.4 lbs

Tomorrow starts another day that I will be successful. There are many things that I have to get done tomorrow. Organize in my mind what is important, discipline myself, and get things done. I am my worst enemy and I will work on solving that issue. I have lost weight now it is up to me to continue to do what is best for my body.

Tomorrow's Menu

boiled egg 2 pieces of bacon and a V8

100 calorie Progresso Chicken Noodle Soup

Shrimp, vegetables, and rice

Tomorrow's Exercises

10 lb. weights arms

bike trainer

stretch

50 squats

50 leg raises

I know when I look at myself I should be proud of what and who I am, but I am not. I know I could do so much better, but the problem lies with me. Self worth is what I need to focus on. I have so many positive things going on in my world. Why can't I be accepting of them and be satisfied with my outer appearance? I guess I hold myselft up in high esteem. My body has gone through changes, but it is easy to give up that is being slothful. I will get it together. Body image is something that concerns me seriously. I will take myself seriously and do what I can with what I have.

I feel like I go up and down like a roller coaster. At what point does it stop? I guess only I can answer that question.

Slowly Coming Off

2009-04-03T03:49:00.000-07:00

Weight: 177 lbs.

Yesterday's weight: 177.4 lbs.

Yesterday's food:
house lomein
dried mango
thin mint cookies

Yesterday's Exercises:
bicep curls
more arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Celebrations:
went out to eat with friend
saw people haven't seen in a while
talked with aunt, haven't talked with her in about a year

I am going to take one day at a time. This weight loss thing is a matter of cause and effect. I realize that and I know that I will be sucessful. Didn't meet my 165 by the end of March, that's alright. I have still lived to see another day. I have to be mindful of my decisions about food and not overeat.

Today is another day. Do what I will put be respectful of myself!

Weight loss What Does it Really Mine

2009-04-01T18:21:00.000-07:00

Weight loss to me is a serious issue. No matter whether you are big or small, weight loss can affect you. In my eyes, weight loss can be a positive or negative. It is a something that shouldn't be taken lightly. Do what you can with what you have. The little things count.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
v8
2 turkey burgers with cheese 1 with mustard the other mustard and salsa
5 barbeque chips
5 fried wingettes and fries
coffee

Exercise
30 lunges
40 squats with 10 lb. weights
stretches
10 minutes bike trainer
20 leg raises
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Motivation, Do I have it?
I need to ride my bike, but I don't feel like it. What I will do is stretch. What will the morning bring? As always, I will have to see.

Celebrations
Got my eyebrows waxed. That was something that I deserved.
Riding my bike is a celebration too. Thank you that I can do that. This is something I tell myself so I can do just that. Will let you know if I rode my bike or not.

Something to be Proud of

2009-03-31T18:19:00.000-07:00

Weight: 179 lbs.

I see a big change in my body even when I overeat. For instance, my hour glass is coming back. I have less fat on my arms. My clothes are fitting my differently. When people see me they can tell that I have lost some weight. That is a sign of progress.

Food
V8
chicken, rice, and vegetable bake
2 slices of cake (sheet cake)
turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
40 squats some using 20 lbs.
10 lunges with 20 lbs.
30 leg raises with pilates ball
20 scissors
40 different arm exercises using 10 lb. weights.

Celebrations
I took pictures with my mother today! That felt good. We don't really do much together, but I am proud that I still have her around.

I got my hair done this weekend. That was truly needed and I deserved that treatment!

This is Harder Then it Looks
Eating right takes time and effort! It is so easy to put it on, but so hard to take it off. I want to thank the support that I have from everyone in my inner circle. I know that I can do it. It just takes mental stimulation and preparation. I should ride my trainer, but you know that I don't feel like it. I actually have a headache. That's alright. Healthy lifestyle is what I am seeking.

I did it to Myself

2009-03-30T15:54:00.000-07:00

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

There is Still Less of Me

2009-03-23T17:55:00.000-07:00

The weight thing is really getting on my last nerves. Yesterday, I didn't overeat I know, but I gained the weight back. Thinking of what I did wrong, I really can't decide on where there was a problem. Was it the mashed potatoes, the black eyed peas. I really don't know, but this morning when I weighed myself I was 178 lb. What happened? This is strange. I haven't been exercising like I was supposed too, but I have been eating right.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
chicken & artichoke lean pocket
rice & mixed vegetables
2 chili dogs

Exercise
40 scissors
arm exercising using 10 lb. weights
25 leg lefts with Pilates ball

As always, will have to see what the morning brings. I wanted to get some Captain D's, but I didn't. Weakness is sometimes an issue. Must move on from that. Am I really working toward my goal of weight loss? Do I need to up my exercise? I think I do.

Up and downs are always my friend. The morning will be here soon! Move on and do what I can with what I have.

16 lbs. Lighter

2009-03-22T20:55:00.000-07:00

There is less of me and I am so proud. The exercises and food changes have really made a difference. Yesterday, I did not eat much, but I was full.

Today
Weight: 174

For making it to this point, I get my nails done. A mini celebration!

Today was a good day.

Food
broccoli, cheese, & onion omelet
side salad and mashed potatoes
1/2 chicken breast, mixed vegetables, & black eyed peas

Exercise
arm curls 10 lbs.

Saturday, March 21

Weight: 177

Food
broccoli and cheese omelet
1 fried wing, rice with broccoli and cream of mushroom soup
KFC's fried spicy wings

Friday, March 20

Food
Campbell wild rice soup
Tilipia and mashed potatoes
plate of ribs
2 hot dogs

This was bad. I should have stopped on the plate of ribs. Even though the food choice was horrible, I didn't gain any weight.

Eating Right & Exercising
Eating right and exercising has really worked for me. I know how to stop eating when I am full. Taking my lunch to work and fixing breakfast saves money and allows me to eat the things I like.

Weight loss is hard, but putting my mind to it has made me realize I can do anything. Focusing on what is important and putting the nonsense behind helps to stay focused on what's important.

I don't know if I will have lost 25 lbs. by the end of the month. Even if I haven't I will continue to work toward my goal. Healthy living is what I am working toward. Getting into pants I haven't worn in 6 months that is what I am forward to.

Did I do the Right Thing Today?

2009-03-19T18:53:00.000-07:00

Weight: 176 lbs.

Meals
0 point Progresso soup
1/2 piece tilapia & 2 servings of mashed potatoes
1/2 cheese burger f& fries
spaghetti

Exercises
40 scissors
30 leg raises
stretches
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Occurances
The day started out normal. Stopped at Piggly Wiggly and bought my breakfast, 0 point Progresso vegetable soup. There were donuts, did I get one, no I didn't. I was proud of that, but I had coffee instead. So which one was worse? Lunch was good. After school, I went to a track meet, that is where I had the fast food. I know. I wasn't hungry when I got home, but I had to eat the spaghetti.

My prediction, is I may go up some, but only the morning can tell. With the workout, I don't know if it will be enough to lose weight, but it will assist with toning. I should have done some squats, but I didn't feel up to it.

I was excited about what I accomplished and today I may have blown it. I am still in the running though. The morning will be here soon, that will be the determining factor.

I Think Success was My Friend Today

2009-03-18T18:30:00.000-07:00

Weight: 177 lbs.

The day was good. My teeth hurt. New wire and power chain for braces, so my mouth hurts. All of the food that I have eaten today has been soft. I don't know how long my mouth is going to hurt, but I am going to seize the moment.

Food
potatoes, grits, eggs, 2 sausage links
chicken salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, 1 boiled egg, 1 slice of bacon)
1/2 piece tilapia, mixed vegetables, mashed potatoes

Exercises
40 scissors
40 minute walk and stairs
10 back kicks
10 side kicks

Overall, things are good! We will see what the morning brings.

I Really Don't Know

2009-03-17T17:02:00.000-07:00

Good evening! The day started out wonderful. My weight this morning was 177.4 lbs. That is 1 lb. below where I was yesterday. Of course, the day went on and things occurred. I will have to see what the morning brings.

Today's Food
1 boiled egg 1 slice of bacon

Honey and Oates bar

shrimp broccoli and pinwheel pasta

2 servings Spaghetti and green beans

Too Much Spaghetti
The two helpings of spaghetti was to much. Instead of two helpings of spaghetti, I should have had more green beans and a smaller portion of spaghetti. It's over with now, no need to worry about past decisions. My belly feels as if I may have over eaten. I am not too sure. When I got home I did a little workout. I may need to do some more, but I don't know right now.

Exercises
60 scissors
20 squats with 10 lb. weights
5 minutes bike trainer
10 back kicks with both legs
10 side leg lifts both legs
various arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Sabotage is the Set Up
Sleepy is currently my friend. My mind is telling me that I need to do something else, like ride my bike or some sit ups or something, but I just don't feel like it. That is sad. Is this self sabotage? It may be, why am I afraid of success? Not only is this a weight thing, this also filters into other aspects of my life.

Last night I went to bed hungry, tonight I am going to bed full. Will there ever be a happy medium?

Tomorrow is another day. I have to get up on time. When the alarm goes off I have to get a move on it. I will start fixing breakfast as soon as I get up.

Tomorrow's Meals
I probably will have an egg and slice of bacon for lunch. If I get up in time I may cook a chicken breast and cut up some lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers for a chicken salad (that's light). Dinner may consist of tilapia, mixed vegetables, and potatoes. It just depends on what the day brings.

Motivation Do I have that?
Motivation is one of my key problems. This gives me a venue to talk about my personal concerns, let downs, triumphs, exercises, food menus, and other things dealing with my health and weight. I am just thankful to have this outlet. As I stated before, tomorrow is a new day and I am willing to make it work.

How was my Day?

2009-03-16T16:40:00.001-07:00

My day was decent. Weight this morning: 178.4

Breakfast: chicken and artichoke lean pocket

Lunch: steak, rice, and broccoli

Dinner: turkey salad, with tomatos, cucumbers, and shredded cheese

Exercise:

40 leg lifts with pilates ball

40 squats with pilates ball

15 minutes bike trainer

30 scissors (leg)

worked out arms with 10 lb. weights

I am hungry right now, but it will be alright! I figured I may get hungry later and I did, but I know what my ultimate goal is. Lose weight in a healthy manner. I don't have anything quick and light to eat in the kitchen. Instead, I will drink water. I didn't have that much at work today! This feeling of hunger will pass. It needs to now, but that is a part of losing weight. If I eat, I will over do it, that is something that I don't want to do.

The weekends tend to be a big part of my problem. All of the downing myself stops here. Ok, I may be hard on myself some more, but I don't mean any harm.

Celebrations:

Even though I have been overeating I don't go above 180. That is something to celebrate. If I do, it doesn't last long.

I got to 176 lbs. that didn't last too long, but I am over that.

I was able to wear a pair of pants comfortably that I haven't gotten into in about 6 months.

Overall, there are minor and major celebrations to this weight loss thing. It can be depressing, but one thing I have learned is if you fall off get back up again. If at first you don't succeed try try again.

I don't know if I will be 165 by the end of the month, but I am going to do my best to get there. This is a mental, physical, and emotional journey that I have undertaken and I will win.

Let's see what tomorrow will bring, I am just curious, due to the lack of food and the addition of exercise.

Times are Hard

2009-03-15T16:35:00.000-07:00

There has been this thought of creating a blog for my weight loss. So today, I decided that it is really needed. I am the type of person that tends to sabotage my efforts. At the end of the December I weighed 190 lbs. I don't know what I weigh right now, but all together, I have lost 14 lbs. I was doing good until about 1 week ago. I really don't know what happened. Taking that back, I am what happened. My goal is to be 165 lbs. I know I can do it. It is a matter of being determined and eating right and exercising.

How Did I lose the 14 lbs?
I refused to pay someone to help me with my weight loss. So, I purchased a trainer for my bicycle (this is something I added to my bike to make it stationary). I started riding it daily, at first I could only ride for 5 minutes. Now, I can ride for 30 minutes straight. Squats and lunges in the morning with pilates ball and leg lifts with pilates ball. Stretching is always a friend.

My Daily Meal Plan
Breakfast: 2 turkey sausages
Lunch: vegetables, rice, and small portion of meat
Dinner: salad

It may be different, but this is what I try to eat daily. One thing I can say is that I got into a pair of pants I haven't been able to fit in about 6 months. That was a very rewarding goal. Now, it is a matter of doing what is right for me at this time in my life. Losing weight in a healthy manner.

What I ate Today
Breakfast: 2 turkey sausages and scrambled eggs
Lunch: shrimp and broccoli pinwheel pasta (several servings)
Dinner: chicken and artichoke lean pocket

I know that is awful, I want tell you what I ate yesterday. I can't hold on to yesterday, it is gone like dust in the wind. Today is gone too, tomorrow is coming and it all starts tomorrow.

My Weight Today
181.2 lbs.

Did I forget to mention that I want to be 165 by the end of the month? See, I told you I sabotage myself every time.

Tomorrow
Morning: 40 leg raises, 40 squats, 20 lunges
Evening: 30 minutes bike trainer, 40 leg raises, 40 squats, 20 lunges

Food
Breakfast: 2 boiled eggs
Lunch: shrimp broccoli pinwheel pasta
Dinner: steak, broccoli, and rice

This will help me stay accountable with my weightloss. I know I can do it and this will make me accountable to my eating and healthy habits.