Something Has to Give

I have decided to this and do it right.  Being a member of the YMCA is a benefit.  Now the only thing to do is use my membership.  With that being said, go to the Y at least 2 times a week.  The classes are awesome and I am really looking forward to going.  It's a matter of taking the time out to do that.  It's a plus because they offer day care within my fee.  This gives him an opportunity to interact with other kids and learn some skills all at the same time.

Being 9 months postpartum has been something different.  The body changes, emotions all over the place, getting used to being a mother, have taken a toll on this 39 year old body.  Plus, I started taking iron pills and I feel completely different.  On top of taking my thyroid medicine.  I got this under control.

Having a new lease on life is something completely different.  What I need to do is this.  Take my thyroid medicine and iron pills daily.  Once my iron pills run out, go to the doctor and get a prescription.  I think I need that in my life.  Do a variety of classes at the Y, go swimming when the weather permits and get my life back.  Just because I'm an older mom, cancer survivor, and 9 months postpartum doesn't mean that my life has to change.  All that needs to be done is get my life in order and focus on what's important and that is my health and my babies.  I have to be healthy to make sure I take care of him and give him all that he needs.

Yoga, 30/30, rpm, swimming, walking, stairs, this will be my exercises.  Plus, add more iron into my diet.  This will make it better.  Now, I don't need to focus on the weight loss, but a healthy lifestyle.  Overall, getting under 200lbs is important, I know it will take time, but I am focused to make it work.

The Story of My Life

I'm always hungry, always hungry and there is nothing that I can do about that.  Always hungry.  Is it the breastfeeding or where I am in my life.  Always hungry.  Healthy snacks, healthy foods, what are those?  No matter what, I'm always hungry.  I weigh 205 lbs.  I get it, I had a baby 8 months ago and it took time to put the weight on and it's going to take time to get it off.  What do I do to make this happen?  

Change my eating habits
Exercise with the baby (do something, instead of nothing)
Not worry about this weight thing

I am in a 14 and they are kinda tight, my top size is xl, for real.  Where they do that at?  I'm not stretching like I should.  When I get off, all I want to do is lay down.  No energy for anything.

My plan
Go to Lake Bottom at least twice a week and do the stairs
Go to the Y at least twice a week and do the elliptical for 15 to 20 minutes.  Get in the sauna for 20 minutes.  When the weather breaks go swimming at least once or twice a week.
Stop feeling sorry for myself and make it happen.

Yes, it's baby weight, but it has to go.   Something has to give.  Get this monkey off my back and get this weight off of me.  I have 4 more months of breastfeeding and maybe my hunger will pass.  We will have to see.

Breastfeeding SMH

I am so glad to be able to do this for my baby, but for me there's a down side.  I'm always hungry.  I don't know how much I weigh, being afraid to weigh myself.  I'm clueless.  There's never enough food for me.  Always hungry is my thing.  I can eat morning, noon, and night.  The problem is making healthy food choices.  It doesn't matter as long as I eat.  While pregnant sweets entered my life.  Now, I can eat them whenever I want.  Never full, isn't an option.  5 more months of breastfeeding and I'm done.  There has to be something better.  When I change my eating habits my supply drops.  Kind of caught between a rock and a hard place.

Venting that's all.  Looking for alternatives to make this thing work.  A plus, I can fit my size 12 pants, my stomach is the issue.  I get it took time to gain it, but now I have to lose it.

Slowly, but Surely

The GM diet is what I've been doing this last week.  Haven't been following it to a t, but I have lost 6 lbs.  I'm very excited about that.  It has been hard work, now I'm under 200 lbs.  Good job!  I made the cabbage soup and been eating that daily.  I'm using Noom to assist with my diet plan.  It has given me until April to get to 170 lbs.  Healthy is what I'm trying to achieve.  It can be done and I'm working toward doing it.  Have to be able to get into my 12s.

My How Times Brings a Change

It's been a really long time since I posted here.  I have many blogs and don't use them at all.  They should be used to my advantage, but life happens as other things.  The problem that I'm having is:  I am 5 months postpartum and I can't seem to lose this weight.  Yes, I just had a baby, but I don't want it to go to far.  I understand that it took several months to put on the weight and it's going to take several to lose it.  There has got to be a better way.  Along with this, I am breastfeeding and it seems my appetite will not stop.  Forever hungry.

There are several solutions:  Exercise, which I haven't done in almost a year.  Change my eating habits to vegetables and fruits, not over eating.  Pace myself and take this serious, because this is a serious thing.  I know that I am over 200 lbs. and that is not cute, by a long shot.

In order to get my life, weight, and health under control there has to be some drastic changes.  First, take one day at a time.  Do what I can.  Follow the above guide lines and focus on what's important.  My body.

I can do this.  At first, I was bothered because I lost the weight and picked it back up.  Now, it's an uphill battle that I'm losing.  I can do this, yes, I can.  No feeling sorry for myself.  Also, getting adjusted to my new life is part of the problem too.  It's alright, I give myself until his birthday to be back to normal.

Another thing, accountability is my issue.  I've been eating and eating and it just doesn't stop.  Yesterday, I had not one, but 2 McGriddles for breakfast.  So, eating habits must change.  Add a little exercise in there to.  My flexibility has gone to the wolves.  Sad, very!

I've started to do some exercise with the baby and he loves it.  Now, it needs to become a habit, part of my life.  I can do this, I keep telling myself, but it's easier to just do nothing.

Breakfast
grits and 2 sausages

Lunch
salad with french dressing, mandarin oranges, fries

Let's see what dinner brings.  I didn't post my weight because I don't know it, but I do know it's over 200 lbs.  Ssshhh, don't tell nobody!

Healthy Decisions Equal Healthy Choices

Yesterday, I decided to cook.  When I do that I try to cook for a few days so that I don't have to cook when I get off of work.  The other day, I put a pork roast in the crockpot so that was already done.  When I got home from Sunday School, I cooked field peas, rice, baked potatoes, and made a spinach salad with cucumbers, carrots, onions, eggs, and chicken.  This should last me for a few days.  For dinner last night, of course, I didn't want any of that so I boiled frozen hamburger patties and made me a bacon double cheese burger, very delicious.  Overall, I have to cook so that I don't waste money eating out and make healthy choices.  In making healthy choices, I choose to not be a diabetic so there I must do right by the foods I eat. 

For my last two endocronology appointments I was told that my levels are at the beginning stages of being a diabetic in the next few years.  This is something that I would rather not happen so therefore, I will make the necessary adjustments so that doesn't come to fruition.  My problem isn't sweets, my problem is pasta, I love it.  The last time I went to the store I purchased large shells, elbow noodles, lasagna noodles, and the small stars.  Got to be more careful, things have to be done in moderation.  So there it is, my life in a nutshell, no all of this doesn't define me, I just know that I can be better if I do better.  That is why I made that large salad to add vegetables to my diet.  I also make fruit smoothies, but I think that break down of sugar in the fruits cause glucose levels to spike.  I can only do those maybe 3-4 times a week, don't want to cause too many issues.  When making my fruit smoothies, I was adding honey, which is a no-no.  Had to stop that.  I put oatmeal, spinach, almond milk, and greek yogurt in them, they give me that sweet and it is a healthier choice, since I really don't like to eat fruit on its on. 

Do I know what I weigh?  Am I really concerned?  No, no, and no!  My body is going through changes, physically and mentally and I am awared of them all.  I have been able to fit clothes that I haven't in years and I am proud of my progress.  My goal is to keep up the good work, constantly add vegetables and fruits to my daily diet and continue to be positive about my changes.  Even if I fall short from time to time, I can always pick it back up again. 

Doing my workout class once a week at church, using my apps on my phone, plus going to the Y (even if it's just sitting in the sauna for a time) is helping with my overall wellness.  So for this I am proud. 

Plus, my pastor gave me this book The Great Physician's Rx for Health & Wellness by Jordan Rubin to read a bible verse to the class before we start.  This book is great not only because it's Bible based, but it gives you the healthier choices when buying and preparing foods.  Great read and I would recommend it to all, not just to be better, but because it references the Bible. 

Much has Happened

Many things have happened since the last time I posted.  For instance, I found out I had thyroid cancer in January 2012.  I had the lump removed off of my neck and in April of 2012, I found out I was cancer free.  During that time, I had to be on a thyroid cancer diet.  Now, a year has passed and things are much better, but I still have to take thyroid medicine for the rest of my life. 

Since all of these things have passed, I constantly have to go to the doctor to get my blood checked.  In doing this, I found out that I am insulin resistant.  That means that within the next few years I could become diabetic.  No, I don't eat surgery foods, but my weakness is pasta and rice.  Things have to get better. 

My weight has gone down and I am glad of that, but I most defiantly have to change my eating habits.  More fruits and vegetables and less pasta and rice. 

Out All Day

We were supposed to go bike riding. Tee suggested changing trails, but where we rent the bikes is right around the street from the trail. The other trails are out of the way. We would have to ride in heavy traffic to get there and that's not safe.

Instead of bike riding, we walked at my favorite spot Lake Bottom. There were four of us and the temperature was over 90 degrees. It was too hot. The first lap around, I walked the stairs 3 times. We walked the half again and I finished all 5 stairs.

After that, we went to eat lunch. No, it wasn't healthy, but one has to eat right? When we finished eating we set outside the restaurant and talked. My friend suggested going to do the stairs again, I was with that. We walked 5 more times, so to total, I did 10 stairs.

My lunch
meatloaf
mashed potatoes
black eyed peas
macaroni and cheese

Don't feel hungry. I also have bought healthy snacks. There are strawberries and cherries in the refrigerator. Another thing, I have been cooking healthy meals. No, I haven't lost the weight, but I am making changes.

Looking back over the post, which haven't been many, it's the same thing. Trying to stay below 170 lbs. I am doing something wrong. To make it worse picking up these bad habits and increasing others. 36 is around the corner and there are many unhealthy lifestyle changes that I have picked up. This is too sad, the changes have taken a toll on me overall.

Things will get better, they always due. Take it slow and remember the body is a machine and it will deteriorate.

181 Where Did This Come From?

For the last few months, I have done nothing. Absolutely nothing. The other day my friends and I went bike riding. We rented our bikes and rode 19 miles to Ft. Benning from Downtown. Really needed that ride. Today, I walked the stairs at Columbus 5 times. The other day, I actually stretched, haven't done that in a while either. So not going to make any plans to get this weight off just going to do what I can do to make it work.

Another thing, changed what I have been eating. Been eating unhealthy snacks like donuts and chips and dip. Make a change. Starting to cook. Got to stay healthy about to be 36 in a few months. Healthy lifestyle!

The Weight has been Staying Down

Time keeps moving and this weight loss thing is very interesting. Due to some mishaps in my life, my weight has been staying below 170 lbs. So proud of that, but not proud of the reason why. The highest my weight has been is 172 lb. After a few days it's back at 161-165 lbs. Truthfully, I need to go shopping, been giving away many pants and skirts. Plus, the weather has changed.

Currently, I need to do the GM Diet because I have not been eating healthy. Not at all. Need to clean out my system. Taking medicine, not eating, eating the wrong things, all of these things does not do the body good. There are so many things that I want to avoid in my life. For instance, cancer, diabetes, heart attack, stroke, high blood pressure, etc. I don't need any of these things in my life.

Even though, eating the right foods does help prevent many illnesses we must remember that stress can cause issues as well. Do what you can to eliminate drama in your life. Try to live a peaceful and caring life. Remember we are a whole body, we must treat ourselves right completely.

During this time in my life, I started being motivated and doing something physical daily. Now, all I do is come home and do nothing. Bad habits have reared their ugly face. All things in moderation. No stretching, no walking, no bike riding, no yoga, no accupuncture, no nothing, but heartache and tears. This entire situation has aged me. I see it in my eyes and others do too.

Needs
Ride bike trainer at least 5-10 minutes a day
stretch daily
start yoga again
go back to accupuncture
squats
leg raises

I will get myself back together. I just don't know when!