Here I Go Again

It has been a long time coming. Haven't been here since June. That is ashame. Starting tomorrow things will be different. Turning 34 has been a challenge and an eye opener for me. Over the last few years, I haven't been proud of myself. My plan is to take one day at a time and continue to do right by my body.

Even though I haven't been posting to the blog I am not to far off from my goals. Still wanted to be 165. Going to the acupuncturist has helped me to realize that I have to take some time out for myself. I rip and run all the time and never reward myself for the life that I live. All of that stops now.

At the acupuncturist, I was told that I need to lose a little weight because I have dead skin on the ball of my feet. She put the needles on the ball and sides of my feet. As soon as the needles were in my feet my entire body got extremely hot. She also put the needles in my neck for stress and energy. Truly, I feel better.

Tomorrow during lunch I will eat spaghetti, I will get up and cook something for breakfast even if it is just some bacon and a boiled egg. Dinner will consist of rice with chicken and broccoli . Waking up will be at 6 am. This will give me a chance to ride my bike trainer for 10 minutes. My body is where I dwell and I will not let it fail me.

I have also made a list of things I need to get checked when I go to my personal physician. I find it strange that the doctor doesn't check you for everything whenever you have an appointment.

This time, I will take it slow and lose at least 4 lbs. a week. I know it can be done, it is always up to me.

Celebrations

Have more room in my jeans

Now, I will post here at least once a week to let you know my progress. I am tired of being over weight and I know I can do it.

Can I Really Lose Weight?

Weight: 181 lbs.
Down: 2 lbs.

That is the burning question. I know I can, but what seems to be the hold up? To be honest, I really can't say what the problem is. All I need to do is do what is best for me at this moment. What that is beats me.

All of the overeating has got to come to an end. Today starts the beginning of doing what is best for me health wise. No overeating, exercise, healthy choices all starts today. I can get this done along with getting the lien off of my credit report and obtaining my PhD. I can do it, I know I can.
I wrote out a schedule for exercise. Will do what I can today. Supposed to do a workout on Fit TV, walk the stairs, arm exercises, and stretch. Ok!

Food
3 sausage links and 1 scrambled egg

Me at 181, I will try to post pictures daily to see the weight loss. This is crazy! Nothing will change unless I want it to. That is what makes this so interesting, when will I finally be tired of being this way. Change must come, but when and at what expense?

Tired can you tell?

Zeta team, I am doing what I can with what I have back to the start weight now I have to lose 16 more pounds.

Dire Straights

Weight: 183 lbs.

Here we go, I joined Man vs. Debts PF Bloggers Weight Loss Challenge. As you see, I haven't posted in over a month. There has been many events going on. When I joined the challenge I was 2 lbs. lighter. This is the end. It is no longer me, I am working with a team.


Zeta Team
Krista
http://change-jar.blogspot.com
-20
Dusty
http://chasingthebull.info
-20
Bettsonly
http://financialsuccessismine.blogspot.com
-16
Jorge
http://independentminded.org
-11
SavingDiva
http://savingforhome.blogspot.com
-8

I look forward to working with you all. Work with me, I need all the support and motivation that I can get.

I will post daily my challenges and celebrations. Working with what I have.

15 Days Ago Today

Weight: 177 lbs.

This is a true visual of how my weight goes up and down. To be exact, 2 weeks ago today I weighed 177. I need to just let it go. Let the weight go and keep it down.

Food
1/2 bbq chicken
potatoe salad
1 bbq beef rib
Nature's Way bar

I also stretched. Will see what the morning brings.

Celebrations
Lost 4 lbs in 2 days (must continue)

Time and Time Again

Weight: 179 lbs.

Here I go again on my on! Been here several times since January and I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. What is it going to take? Yesterday, I thought about fasting. Maybe it was only a thought.

Food Yesterday
2 small cans of v8
Progresso chicken noodle soup
pieces of turkey (small)
brownie
2 slices of pepperoni pizza

If this would be considered a fast, so be it. Excitement should be one of my feelings, but I don't know if it is. Yes, I am down 2 lbs. Honestly, I was trying to go for 3, but that didn't work. Exercise is something that I haven't been doing. Time changes things. At the beginning of April I was sick and still coughing up stuff, so that is mainly why I haven't been exercising. Truthfully, I just haven't felt like it. Weight can be lost if I eat less calories. That is my plan. This morning I did 10 squats. What the afternoon has to offer as for exercise the day will have to bring tell.

I am tired and need a break. Spending time doing something physical is always a benefit. Sunday we went walking at the River Walk. That was relaxing and allowed me to get some type of exercise in.

Today is another day and I am not going to eat that much. There is an event that I must attend Thursday after next. I have a gown to wear, but if I can't fit it I will have to purchase another one. That is not in the budget. Trying hard to achieve this weight loss goal. It can be done, but I don't want to go to the extremes. I think I may be there already.

Down with Fat and Up with Hope

Weight: 181 lbs.

Blogs Purpose
This blog is supposed to be helping me, but I am not helping myself. Down with fat and up with hope is going to be my new phrase. There has to be some type of intervention. I am serious! What is it going to take for me to get this together. The answer is stay focused and don't lose sight of what I am really trying to do. This seems to be a repetitive thing for me. Will I ever get tired of losing (in this case gaining)?

Accountability
In my life, there has to be something that makes me be more accountable for my actions. I have said it before and I will say it again, it is so easy to let me down. Why is that so? I should be up on a pedestal looking high above and know that I can do anything that I put my mind too. It is not that easy. Today should be the day that I never look back. Get every aspect of my life in order and lose the weight. Ok, really trying to make those small steps. Purchased some V8. The small cans. This will be my breakfast.

It would be wrong for me to say that I am losing in every aspect of my life, but I am not. All other things look good. Also, the bad habits has me in a world of hurt. Not really that, but it sometimes gets out of control. Getting that together is another thing.

Weight loss for Me
Weight loss for me is something that I know I can do, it is just a matter of doing the right thing. Eating is a past time that I truly enjoy, but it has to be healthy eating. I am tall, but I don't have to be overweight. That is where I am today. Getting below 190 was a big deal for me. I got below 180, but it tends to go up and down. That seriously needs to stop! Again, I need to lose 16 lbs.

Fasting
This is drastic, but it has crossed my mind. Just going on a fast or something of those sorts. I need to do that for myself to cleanse my body of all of the impurities. It will also help me realize that food is something we need to sustain life, not for enjoyment purposes. If I do decide to fast, it will take much dedication. The fast will also clear my mind of all of the crap that is clogging up my thoughts. Clarity is needed! Fasting will not be easy, but the negative things will leave and open up a place of focus.

Success will that ever Be?
I get tired of not succeeding! Losing is such a hard thing to do, I can do it, but when will I get tired of going up and down. I get close, but never reach my goal weight! All I can do is shack my head. I will let you know what I decide to do as for the fast. It may not be a full fast, but something that will allow me to drink more and eat less.

Down With Fat: The emotional toll

Down With Fat: The emotional toll

What is it Going to Take

Weight: 177 lbs.

Proud, but What is it Going to Take?
Again, I have been here time and time again. I am tired of this. This being the ups and downs in the weightloss game. I am the key element in this endeavor. Food is a weakness for me, but sometimes it is worse then others. Honestly, I just want to get to my goal and get it over with. I feel like John at John is Fit when he wrote about being the Worst Weightloss Blogger. I started this because I thought it would help me in losing weight, but I have been up and down like a see saw and it is getting old. The temptation has to come to an end.

Every morning when I get up, I dreaded getting on the scale. It is a burden and sometimes a release. It makes me feel great when I have actually lost 1-2 lbs. On the other hand when I have gone up it is major disappointment. I rejoice in the loss and get emotional with the gain. I really don't know why because I truly can tell when I will gain or loss. It depends on what I have eaten and how much. It doesn't even take exercise for you to lose. I don't want this blog to be only about my low points because they aren't low all the time. It just saddens me when I have been here several times. I have to make a change, it is getting old and I am so far behind my goal date of March 31, what it is going on another month. What am I going to do?

Food
sausage and bacon
baked pork chop, broccoli with cheese, and baked potatoe
a little chicken and rice
Zaxby's grilled chicken salad with french dressing

Exercise
None

Learning from other Bloggers
I found John Is Fit and it has helped me realize that I am not alone. He lists many strategies in losing and gaining the weight, but overall he is very motivating. He has a list of other weightloss bloggers. I haven't gone to all of their sites, but I have checked out Down with Fat. This blog is about a man and women and what they go through to lose weight. I really like some of their ideas. One thing I am going to adopt is they have a break down of their rewards when they get to a certain weight. I think that is a good idea.

Always know you are not alone. You can do it. I am not going to say it will be easy because it won't. Free will is a main factor, but as long as you put your all into it, you will reap positive rewards. Even though I haven't gotten to my 165 lbs. I am no longer 190, that is success within itself. Be thankful for the little things, they lead to big ones.

Here I Go Again

Weight: 178 lbs.

As the Days Go By
As the days go by, there are moments where my appetite is greater than others. I know what to contribute it too, but it is just a way of life. The weekends tend to be a breaker for me. I do well Monday-Thursday, but Friday-Sunday is always a downward slide. There are strategies that I can adopt to help me be successful, but as always I don't know where to begin. I'll say I can do it, but that word sabatoge does often appear.

Weigh Less
Honestly, I thought that I would have weighed more, but I don't. Let's see, keeping things in the manner that they are 13 lbs. to go. It seems so simple, but yet so hard.

Exercise What is That?
I haven't been exercising haven't felt like it. My clothes are fitting a little different. The jeans that I bought weekend before last aren't as tight as they were when I bought them. Any progress is better then none.

Stay Focused
All I have to do is keep the main thing the main thing. I am tired of being at this point, I want there to be less of me. I am proud of what I have accomplished, but it seems like a never ending battle. Somewhat of an obsession. One thing I can say is that looking at other weightloss blogs, this is something that goes on. Easy to put it on, but hard to take it off. I will continue to read what others have to say and know that I am not alone. The sad thing about it is that I really don't have that much weight to lose, but again it is so hard.

Food
1 sausage link
sausage ziti
1 1/2 baked porkchop with bread crumbs, broccoli and cheese, red baked potatoe

Exercise
None

Things are What you Make Them
Things are what you make them. I always say that, but I need to do more then say it I need to start living it. This weightloss thing can drive anyone crazy, but a good thing is that there are people that are doing and going through the same things. I am not alone. You are not either. Take one day at a time and know you will weigh less. Start with baby steps. Once a day eat a salad for lunch (substitute). Park farther away at the grocery store. Instead of putting mayonnaise on your sandwhich just use mustard. These are small steps that will work. It is up to you to make a change. Do that starting today!

I've Been Here Before

Weight: 175.8 lb.

Proud, but doesn't Seem That Way
Not exactly at this weight, but lower than before. I am proud of my accomplishments. I am overjoyed with excitement, but my behavior doesn't show it. My mood does not seem as if I have lost anything. To be honest, I really don't know what the problem is. I think I may just be tired. Tired mentally and physically, but more so mentally.

Current Meal Plan
My food intake for the day was alright, not as good as it could be. I did an analysis of what is going on. Remember, I spoke of sabatoge a few blogs ago. It has reared its ugly head. My goal is so close, but o so far away. I will list what I ate and you will see what I am speaking of.

Food
2 slices of bacon
chili dog
2 Church's thighs
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

As I type, I am cooking dinner.
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

Question
Now the question of the day is do I eat what I have cooked or do I save it for tomorrow? Yes, I did eat and it was good. I ate the entire breast, some asparagus, and 1/3 of the sweet potatoe. On top of all that I don't feel good. I will not talk about that, but it is the truth.

Looking at my meal plan for the last week, I have been eating a lot of rice that has to change. More vegetables to my plan.

Weighing myself tomorrow may not happen. I don't need to be disappointed. I did it to myself I know, but still. It seems the weekend is always my downfall. Let the sabotage go!