I've Been Here Before

Weight: 175.8 lb.

Proud, but doesn't Seem That Way
Not exactly at this weight, but lower than before. I am proud of my accomplishments. I am overjoyed with excitement, but my behavior doesn't show it. My mood does not seem as if I have lost anything. To be honest, I really don't know what the problem is. I think I may just be tired. Tired mentally and physically, but more so mentally.

Current Meal Plan
My food intake for the day was alright, not as good as it could be. I did an analysis of what is going on. Remember, I spoke of sabatoge a few blogs ago. It has reared its ugly head. My goal is so close, but o so far away. I will list what I ate and you will see what I am speaking of.

Food
2 slices of bacon
chili dog
2 Church's thighs
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

As I type, I am cooking dinner.
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

Question
Now the question of the day is do I eat what I have cooked or do I save it for tomorrow? Yes, I did eat and it was good. I ate the entire breast, some asparagus, and 1/3 of the sweet potatoe. On top of all that I don't feel good. I will not talk about that, but it is the truth.

Looking at my meal plan for the last week, I have been eating a lot of rice that has to change. More vegetables to my plan.

Weighing myself tomorrow may not happen. I don't need to be disappointed. I did it to myself I know, but still. It seems the weekend is always my downfall. Let the sabotage go!

Losing is Half the Battle

Weight: 177 lbs.

I came down due to following my guidelines yesterday. I am proud. I know that you are supposed to eat, but when you are full from a previous meal what to do? I didn't eat dinner yesterday due to all of what I ate for lunch. I stopped and bought some chicken broth to drink, but I didn't need it because I was still full. I am proud of that. I have been here several times and I sabatoge myself often. This is what I am striving to not do this time. This time will be different I promise to myself. You know it is so easy to let yourself down. I wonder why that is so. Disappointment should not be my friend, but I know it very well. I think we need to discontinue our relationship. It only leads to heartache and pain. I don't need that at this point in my life. Moving forward is my biggest concern. Happiness will be my new friend.

Food
1 boiled egg and 1 slice of bacon
chili over rice and mixed vegetables
rice mixed vegetables with shrimp
thin slice of chocolate cake

Exercises
70 scissors
10 lunges with 10 lb. weights
various arm exercises
30 leg lifts with pilates ball
push ups on pilates ball
stretches
30 butt lifts

As always, as the day continue I will post more. Have a wonderful day! Day what you can with what you have. Be positive and positivity will follow. You deserve to be the best you possible. Don't hold on, let it go, it will be alright.

Celebrations
eyebrows waxed
10 minute massage in mall

How I Really Feel
I feel wonderful. I know I can be successful, it is just a matter of doing what is best for my overall health. As always, I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I feel that I need to do more, but there is no but it is a matter of staying focused and doing what is right. Tomorrow is another day and regardless of what it may bring I know that I can achieve my goals. If I don't lose, I will be disappointed but it is not the end of the world.

Coming Down, but will It Continue?

Weight: 179 lbs.

Yesterday
Yesterday was a decent day, like I stated, I did eat too many chili dogs, but I am ok with that. The exercise that I did was well deserved and I am glad that I did it. I guess I could have rode my bike trainer longer, but at least I rode it, right?

Today
Today, I don't know what I will eat, but I think I have it under control. There are some chili dogs left. That is what I will eat for lunch, but I have brought rice and mixed vegetables too. That should work out.

When I get home. Bike trainer and more exercises. I may do a video it just depends on how I feel.

Food
1 boiled egg and slice of bacon
mixed vegetables with rice, 2 hot dogs with chili (no buns), fries, 3 slices of boston butt (small)

This was too much for lunch! I can see that! I don't know what or if I will eat dinner. If I do eat, it may just be broth or something light. I will have to see. Ok, I will not eat anything for dinner. Chicken or vegetable broth will be the food for the evening. I can do this.

I did what I said I was going to do. I didn't eat when I got home. Stopped by the store and bought the chicken broth, but I didn't drink it. See I can do good.

Exercises
35 scissors
20 lunges with 10 lb. weights
arm exercises (I will specify later)
30 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
15 leg raises

Challenges
The challenge of the day is doing what is best for my body. Things happen, but having a healthy lifestyle can prevent some of the illnesses that may occur.

As the day progresses like yesterday I will make adjustments to this post.

Overall, I know that what I eat today was not as healthy as it could have been. Temptation leads to weakness and indulgence.

Celebrations
I didn't eat when I got home. I know you need to eat, but I was full from what I ate for lunch. Regardless of the morning weight, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed when I get off. That will be a good treat, I may get accupuncture too. Will just have to see what the day brings.

I did it to Myself

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

There is Still Less of Me

The weight thing is really getting on my last nerves. Yesterday, I didn't overeat I know, but I gained the weight back. Thinking of what I did wrong, I really can't decide on where there was a problem. Was it the mashed potatoes, the black eyed peas. I really don't know, but this morning when I weighed myself I was 178 lb. What happened? This is strange. I haven't been exercising like I was supposed too, but I have been eating right.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
chicken & artichoke lean pocket
rice & mixed vegetables
2 chili dogs

Exercise
40 scissors
arm exercising using 10 lb. weights
25 leg lefts with Pilates ball

As always, will have to see what the morning brings. I wanted to get some Captain D's, but I didn't. Weakness is sometimes an issue. Must move on from that. Am I really working toward my goal of weight loss? Do I need to up my exercise? I think I do.

Up and downs are always my friend. The morning will be here soon! Move on and do what I can with what I have.

I Really Don't Know

Good evening! The day started out wonderful. My weight this morning was 177.4 lbs. That is 1 lb. below where I was yesterday. Of course, the day went on and things occurred. I will have to see what the morning brings.

Today's Food
1 boiled egg 1 slice of bacon

Honey and Oates bar

shrimp broccoli and pinwheel pasta

2 servings Spaghetti and green beans

Too Much Spaghetti
The two helpings of spaghetti was to much. Instead of two helpings of spaghetti, I should have had more green beans and a smaller portion of spaghetti. It's over with now, no need to worry about past decisions. My belly feels as if I may have over eaten. I am not too sure. When I got home I did a little workout. I may need to do some more, but I don't know right now.

Exercises
60 scissors
20 squats with 10 lb. weights
5 minutes bike trainer
10 back kicks with both legs
10 side leg lifts both legs
various arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Sabotage is the Set Up
Sleepy is currently my friend. My mind is telling me that I need to do something else, like ride my bike or some sit ups or something, but I just don't feel like it. That is sad. Is this self sabotage? It may be, why am I afraid of success? Not only is this a weight thing, this also filters into other aspects of my life.

Last night I went to bed hungry, tonight I am going to bed full. Will there ever be a happy medium?

Tomorrow is another day. I have to get up on time. When the alarm goes off I have to get a move on it. I will start fixing breakfast as soon as I get up.

Tomorrow's Meals
I probably will have an egg and slice of bacon for lunch. If I get up in time I may cook a chicken breast and cut up some lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers for a chicken salad (that's light). Dinner may consist of tilapia, mixed vegetables, and potatoes. It just depends on what the day brings.

Motivation Do I have that?
Motivation is one of my key problems. This gives me a venue to talk about my personal concerns, let downs, triumphs, exercises, food menus, and other things dealing with my health and weight. I am just thankful to have this outlet. As I stated before, tomorrow is a new day and I am willing to make it work.

Times are Hard

There has been this thought of creating a blog for my weight loss. So today, I decided that it is really needed. I am the type of person that tends to sabotage my efforts. At the end of the December I weighed 190 lbs. I don't know what I weigh right now, but all together, I have lost 14 lbs. I was doing good until about 1 week ago. I really don't know what happened. Taking that back, I am what happened. My goal is to be 165 lbs. I know I can do it. It is a matter of being determined and eating right and exercising.

How Did I lose the 14 lbs?
I refused to pay someone to help me with my weight loss. So, I purchased a trainer for my bicycle (this is something I added to my bike to make it stationary). I started riding it daily, at first I could only ride for 5 minutes. Now, I can ride for 30 minutes straight. Squats and lunges in the morning with pilates ball and leg lifts with pilates ball. Stretching is always a friend.

My Daily Meal Plan
Breakfast: 2 turkey sausages
Lunch: vegetables, rice, and small portion of meat
Dinner: salad

It may be different, but this is what I try to eat daily. One thing I can say is that I got into a pair of pants I haven't been able to fit in about 6 months. That was a very rewarding goal. Now, it is a matter of doing what is right for me at this time in my life. Losing weight in a healthy manner.

What I ate Today
Breakfast: 2 turkey sausages and scrambled eggs
Lunch: shrimp and broccoli pinwheel pasta (several servings)
Dinner: chicken and artichoke lean pocket

I know that is awful, I want tell you what I ate yesterday. I can't hold on to yesterday, it is gone like dust in the wind. Today is gone too, tomorrow is coming and it all starts tomorrow.

My Weight Today
181.2 lbs.

Did I forget to mention that I want to be 165 by the end of the month? See, I told you I sabotage myself every time.

Tomorrow
Morning: 40 leg raises, 40 squats, 20 lunges
Evening: 30 minutes bike trainer, 40 leg raises, 40 squats, 20 lunges

Food
Breakfast: 2 boiled eggs
Lunch: shrimp broccoli pinwheel pasta
Dinner: steak, broccoli, and rice

This will help me stay accountable with my weightloss. I know I can do it and this will make me accountable to my eating and healthy habits.