Losing is Half the Battle

Weight: 177 lbs.

I came down due to following my guidelines yesterday. I am proud. I know that you are supposed to eat, but when you are full from a previous meal what to do? I didn't eat dinner yesterday due to all of what I ate for lunch. I stopped and bought some chicken broth to drink, but I didn't need it because I was still full. I am proud of that. I have been here several times and I sabatoge myself often. This is what I am striving to not do this time. This time will be different I promise to myself. You know it is so easy to let yourself down. I wonder why that is so. Disappointment should not be my friend, but I know it very well. I think we need to discontinue our relationship. It only leads to heartache and pain. I don't need that at this point in my life. Moving forward is my biggest concern. Happiness will be my new friend.

Food
1 boiled egg and 1 slice of bacon
chili over rice and mixed vegetables
rice mixed vegetables with shrimp
thin slice of chocolate cake

Exercises
70 scissors
10 lunges with 10 lb. weights
various arm exercises
30 leg lifts with pilates ball
push ups on pilates ball
stretches
30 butt lifts

As always, as the day continue I will post more. Have a wonderful day! Day what you can with what you have. Be positive and positivity will follow. You deserve to be the best you possible. Don't hold on, let it go, it will be alright.

Celebrations
eyebrows waxed
10 minute massage in mall

How I Really Feel
I feel wonderful. I know I can be successful, it is just a matter of doing what is best for my overall health. As always, I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I feel that I need to do more, but there is no but it is a matter of staying focused and doing what is right. Tomorrow is another day and regardless of what it may bring I know that I can achieve my goals. If I don't lose, I will be disappointed but it is not the end of the world.

Coming Down, but will It Continue?

Weight: 179 lbs.

Yesterday
Yesterday was a decent day, like I stated, I did eat too many chili dogs, but I am ok with that. The exercise that I did was well deserved and I am glad that I did it. I guess I could have rode my bike trainer longer, but at least I rode it, right?

Today
Today, I don't know what I will eat, but I think I have it under control. There are some chili dogs left. That is what I will eat for lunch, but I have brought rice and mixed vegetables too. That should work out.

When I get home. Bike trainer and more exercises. I may do a video it just depends on how I feel.

Food
1 boiled egg and slice of bacon
mixed vegetables with rice, 2 hot dogs with chili (no buns), fries, 3 slices of boston butt (small)

This was too much for lunch! I can see that! I don't know what or if I will eat dinner. If I do eat, it may just be broth or something light. I will have to see. Ok, I will not eat anything for dinner. Chicken or vegetable broth will be the food for the evening. I can do this.

I did what I said I was going to do. I didn't eat when I got home. Stopped by the store and bought the chicken broth, but I didn't drink it. See I can do good.

Exercises
35 scissors
20 lunges with 10 lb. weights
arm exercises (I will specify later)
30 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
15 leg raises

Challenges
The challenge of the day is doing what is best for my body. Things happen, but having a healthy lifestyle can prevent some of the illnesses that may occur.

As the day progresses like yesterday I will make adjustments to this post.

Overall, I know that what I eat today was not as healthy as it could have been. Temptation leads to weakness and indulgence.

Celebrations
I didn't eat when I got home. I know you need to eat, but I was full from what I ate for lunch. Regardless of the morning weight, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed when I get off. That will be a good treat, I may get accupuncture too. Will just have to see what the day brings.

Spring Break is Over

I was sick for the beginning of Spring Break (Saturday-Thursday). I am not at 100%, but I am much better. We went to Atlanta for the weekend. That was fun, but during my illness I ate like I wasn't sick. That is ashamed, I know. On top of that I watched on the History Channel, The Seven Deadly. Gluttony was one of the ones I caught. It really made sense to me. Over eating is not healthy and can cause several issues. I don't want to get caught up in that. I know that we are all closer to dying, but it doesn't have to be food related.

During my sickness of course I didn't do any exercising. I weighed myself the other day and I was 177 lbs. That's not that bad.

Celebrations

bought a pair of Old Navy jeans size 14 long

bought a green tube dress

bought a rain coat

Food

bacon eggs and grits

lasagna

Wendy's chicken nuggets, small fries, bacon cheese burger, and chocolate frosty

noodles with 2 hot dogs

I will not talk about what I ate over the weekend.

Weight

182.4 lbs

Tomorrow starts another day that I will be successful. There are many things that I have to get done tomorrow. Organize in my mind what is important, discipline myself, and get things done. I am my worst enemy and I will work on solving that issue. I have lost weight now it is up to me to continue to do what is best for my body.

Tomorrow's Menu

boiled egg 2 pieces of bacon and a V8

100 calorie Progresso Chicken Noodle Soup

Shrimp, vegetables, and rice

Tomorrow's Exercises

10 lb. weights arms

bike trainer

stretch

50 squats

50 leg raises

I know when I look at myself I should be proud of what and who I am, but I am not. I know I could do so much better, but the problem lies with me. Self worth is what I need to focus on. I have so many positive things going on in my world. Why can't I be accepting of them and be satisfied with my outer appearance? I guess I hold myselft up in high esteem. My body has gone through changes, but it is easy to give up that is being slothful. I will get it together. Body image is something that concerns me seriously. I will take myself seriously and do what I can with what I have.

I feel like I go up and down like a roller coaster. At what point does it stop? I guess only I can answer that question.

Weight loss What Does it Really Mine

Weight loss to me is a serious issue. No matter whether you are big or small, weight loss can affect you. In my eyes, weight loss can be a positive or negative. It is a something that shouldn't be taken lightly. Do what you can with what you have. The little things count.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
v8
2 turkey burgers with cheese 1 with mustard the other mustard and salsa
5 barbeque chips
5 fried wingettes and fries
coffee

Exercise
30 lunges
40 squats with 10 lb. weights
stretches
10 minutes bike trainer
20 leg raises
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Motivation, Do I have it?
I need to ride my bike, but I don't feel like it. What I will do is stretch. What will the morning bring? As always, I will have to see.

Celebrations
Got my eyebrows waxed. That was something that I deserved.
Riding my bike is a celebration too. Thank you that I can do that. This is something I tell myself so I can do just that. Will let you know if I rode my bike or not.

I did it to Myself

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

I Really Don't Know

Good evening! The day started out wonderful. My weight this morning was 177.4 lbs. That is 1 lb. below where I was yesterday. Of course, the day went on and things occurred. I will have to see what the morning brings.

Today's Food
1 boiled egg 1 slice of bacon

Honey and Oates bar

shrimp broccoli and pinwheel pasta

2 servings Spaghetti and green beans

Too Much Spaghetti
The two helpings of spaghetti was to much. Instead of two helpings of spaghetti, I should have had more green beans and a smaller portion of spaghetti. It's over with now, no need to worry about past decisions. My belly feels as if I may have over eaten. I am not too sure. When I got home I did a little workout. I may need to do some more, but I don't know right now.

Exercises
60 scissors
20 squats with 10 lb. weights
5 minutes bike trainer
10 back kicks with both legs
10 side leg lifts both legs
various arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Sabotage is the Set Up
Sleepy is currently my friend. My mind is telling me that I need to do something else, like ride my bike or some sit ups or something, but I just don't feel like it. That is sad. Is this self sabotage? It may be, why am I afraid of success? Not only is this a weight thing, this also filters into other aspects of my life.

Last night I went to bed hungry, tonight I am going to bed full. Will there ever be a happy medium?

Tomorrow is another day. I have to get up on time. When the alarm goes off I have to get a move on it. I will start fixing breakfast as soon as I get up.

Tomorrow's Meals
I probably will have an egg and slice of bacon for lunch. If I get up in time I may cook a chicken breast and cut up some lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers for a chicken salad (that's light). Dinner may consist of tilapia, mixed vegetables, and potatoes. It just depends on what the day brings.

Motivation Do I have that?
Motivation is one of my key problems. This gives me a venue to talk about my personal concerns, let downs, triumphs, exercises, food menus, and other things dealing with my health and weight. I am just thankful to have this outlet. As I stated before, tomorrow is a new day and I am willing to make it work.

How was my Day?

My day was decent. Weight this morning: 178.4

Breakfast: chicken and artichoke lean pocket

Lunch: steak, rice, and broccoli

Dinner: turkey salad, with tomatos, cucumbers, and shredded cheese

Exercise:

40 leg lifts with pilates ball

40 squats with pilates ball

15 minutes bike trainer

30 scissors (leg)

worked out arms with 10 lb. weights

I am hungry right now, but it will be alright! I figured I may get hungry later and I did, but I know what my ultimate goal is. Lose weight in a healthy manner. I don't have anything quick and light to eat in the kitchen. Instead, I will drink water. I didn't have that much at work today! This feeling of hunger will pass. It needs to now, but that is a part of losing weight. If I eat, I will over do it, that is something that I don't want to do.

The weekends tend to be a big part of my problem. All of the downing myself stops here. Ok, I may be hard on myself some more, but I don't mean any harm.

Celebrations:

Even though I have been overeating I don't go above 180. That is something to celebrate. If I do, it doesn't last long.

I got to 176 lbs. that didn't last too long, but I am over that.

I was able to wear a pair of pants comfortably that I haven't gotten into in about 6 months.

Overall, there are minor and major celebrations to this weight loss thing. It can be depressing, but one thing I have learned is if you fall off get back up again. If at first you don't succeed try try again.

I don't know if I will be 165 by the end of the month, but I am going to do my best to get there. This is a mental, physical, and emotional journey that I have undertaken and I will win.

Let's see what tomorrow will bring, I am just curious, due to the lack of food and the addition of exercise.