What is it Going to Take

Weight: 177 lbs.

Proud, but What is it Going to Take?
Again, I have been here time and time again. I am tired of this. This being the ups and downs in the weightloss game. I am the key element in this endeavor. Food is a weakness for me, but sometimes it is worse then others. Honestly, I just want to get to my goal and get it over with. I feel like John at John is Fit when he wrote about being the Worst Weightloss Blogger. I started this because I thought it would help me in losing weight, but I have been up and down like a see saw and it is getting old. The temptation has to come to an end.

Every morning when I get up, I dreaded getting on the scale. It is a burden and sometimes a release. It makes me feel great when I have actually lost 1-2 lbs. On the other hand when I have gone up it is major disappointment. I rejoice in the loss and get emotional with the gain. I really don't know why because I truly can tell when I will gain or loss. It depends on what I have eaten and how much. It doesn't even take exercise for you to lose. I don't want this blog to be only about my low points because they aren't low all the time. It just saddens me when I have been here several times. I have to make a change, it is getting old and I am so far behind my goal date of March 31, what it is going on another month. What am I going to do?

Food
sausage and bacon
baked pork chop, broccoli with cheese, and baked potatoe
a little chicken and rice
Zaxby's grilled chicken salad with french dressing

Exercise
None

Learning from other Bloggers
I found John Is Fit and it has helped me realize that I am not alone. He lists many strategies in losing and gaining the weight, but overall he is very motivating. He has a list of other weightloss bloggers. I haven't gone to all of their sites, but I have checked out Down with Fat. This blog is about a man and women and what they go through to lose weight. I really like some of their ideas. One thing I am going to adopt is they have a break down of their rewards when they get to a certain weight. I think that is a good idea.

Always know you are not alone. You can do it. I am not going to say it will be easy because it won't. Free will is a main factor, but as long as you put your all into it, you will reap positive rewards. Even though I haven't gotten to my 165 lbs. I am no longer 190, that is success within itself. Be thankful for the little things, they lead to big ones.

Coming Down, but will It Continue?

Weight: 179 lbs.

Yesterday
Yesterday was a decent day, like I stated, I did eat too many chili dogs, but I am ok with that. The exercise that I did was well deserved and I am glad that I did it. I guess I could have rode my bike trainer longer, but at least I rode it, right?

Today
Today, I don't know what I will eat, but I think I have it under control. There are some chili dogs left. That is what I will eat for lunch, but I have brought rice and mixed vegetables too. That should work out.

When I get home. Bike trainer and more exercises. I may do a video it just depends on how I feel.

Food
1 boiled egg and slice of bacon
mixed vegetables with rice, 2 hot dogs with chili (no buns), fries, 3 slices of boston butt (small)

This was too much for lunch! I can see that! I don't know what or if I will eat dinner. If I do eat, it may just be broth or something light. I will have to see. Ok, I will not eat anything for dinner. Chicken or vegetable broth will be the food for the evening. I can do this.

I did what I said I was going to do. I didn't eat when I got home. Stopped by the store and bought the chicken broth, but I didn't drink it. See I can do good.

Exercises
35 scissors
20 lunges with 10 lb. weights
arm exercises (I will specify later)
30 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
15 leg raises

Challenges
The challenge of the day is doing what is best for my body. Things happen, but having a healthy lifestyle can prevent some of the illnesses that may occur.

As the day progresses like yesterday I will make adjustments to this post.

Overall, I know that what I eat today was not as healthy as it could have been. Temptation leads to weakness and indulgence.

Celebrations
I didn't eat when I got home. I know you need to eat, but I was full from what I ate for lunch. Regardless of the morning weight, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed when I get off. That will be a good treat, I may get accupuncture too. Will just have to see what the day brings.

Slowly Coming Off

Weight: 177 lbs.

Yesterday's weight: 177.4 lbs.

Yesterday's food:
house lomein
dried mango
thin mint cookies

Yesterday's Exercises:
bicep curls
more arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Celebrations:
went out to eat with friend
saw people haven't seen in a while
talked with aunt, haven't talked with her in about a year

I am going to take one day at a time. This weight loss thing is a matter of cause and effect. I realize that and I know that I will be sucessful. Didn't meet my 165 by the end of March, that's alright. I have still lived to see another day. I have to be mindful of my decisions about food and not overeat.

Today is another day. Do what I will put be respectful of myself!

I did it to Myself

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

There is Still Less of Me

The weight thing is really getting on my last nerves. Yesterday, I didn't overeat I know, but I gained the weight back. Thinking of what I did wrong, I really can't decide on where there was a problem. Was it the mashed potatoes, the black eyed peas. I really don't know, but this morning when I weighed myself I was 178 lb. What happened? This is strange. I haven't been exercising like I was supposed too, but I have been eating right.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
chicken & artichoke lean pocket
rice & mixed vegetables
2 chili dogs

Exercise
40 scissors
arm exercising using 10 lb. weights
25 leg lefts with Pilates ball

As always, will have to see what the morning brings. I wanted to get some Captain D's, but I didn't. Weakness is sometimes an issue. Must move on from that. Am I really working toward my goal of weight loss? Do I need to up my exercise? I think I do.

Up and downs are always my friend. The morning will be here soon! Move on and do what I can with what I have.

16 lbs. Lighter

There is less of me and I am so proud. The exercises and food changes have really made a difference. Yesterday, I did not eat much, but I was full.

Today
Weight: 174

For making it to this point, I get my nails done. A mini celebration!

Today was a good day.

Food
broccoli, cheese, & onion omelet
side salad and mashed potatoes
1/2 chicken breast, mixed vegetables, & black eyed peas

Exercise
arm curls 10 lbs.

Saturday, March 21

Weight: 177

Food
broccoli and cheese omelet
1 fried wing, rice with broccoli and cream of mushroom soup
KFC's fried spicy wings

Friday, March 20

Food
Campbell wild rice soup
Tilipia and mashed potatoes
plate of ribs
2 hot dogs

This was bad. I should have stopped on the plate of ribs. Even though the food choice was horrible, I didn't gain any weight.

Eating Right & Exercising
Eating right and exercising has really worked for me. I know how to stop eating when I am full. Taking my lunch to work and fixing breakfast saves money and allows me to eat the things I like.

Weight loss is hard, but putting my mind to it has made me realize I can do anything. Focusing on what is important and putting the nonsense behind helps to stay focused on what's important.

I don't know if I will have lost 25 lbs. by the end of the month. Even if I haven't I will continue to work toward my goal. Healthy living is what I am working toward. Getting into pants I haven't worn in 6 months that is what I am forward to.

I Really Don't Know

Good evening! The day started out wonderful. My weight this morning was 177.4 lbs. That is 1 lb. below where I was yesterday. Of course, the day went on and things occurred. I will have to see what the morning brings.

Today's Food
1 boiled egg 1 slice of bacon

Honey and Oates bar

shrimp broccoli and pinwheel pasta

2 servings Spaghetti and green beans

Too Much Spaghetti
The two helpings of spaghetti was to much. Instead of two helpings of spaghetti, I should have had more green beans and a smaller portion of spaghetti. It's over with now, no need to worry about past decisions. My belly feels as if I may have over eaten. I am not too sure. When I got home I did a little workout. I may need to do some more, but I don't know right now.

Exercises
60 scissors
20 squats with 10 lb. weights
5 minutes bike trainer
10 back kicks with both legs
10 side leg lifts both legs
various arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Sabotage is the Set Up
Sleepy is currently my friend. My mind is telling me that I need to do something else, like ride my bike or some sit ups or something, but I just don't feel like it. That is sad. Is this self sabotage? It may be, why am I afraid of success? Not only is this a weight thing, this also filters into other aspects of my life.

Last night I went to bed hungry, tonight I am going to bed full. Will there ever be a happy medium?

Tomorrow is another day. I have to get up on time. When the alarm goes off I have to get a move on it. I will start fixing breakfast as soon as I get up.

Tomorrow's Meals
I probably will have an egg and slice of bacon for lunch. If I get up in time I may cook a chicken breast and cut up some lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers for a chicken salad (that's light). Dinner may consist of tilapia, mixed vegetables, and potatoes. It just depends on what the day brings.

Motivation Do I have that?
Motivation is one of my key problems. This gives me a venue to talk about my personal concerns, let downs, triumphs, exercises, food menus, and other things dealing with my health and weight. I am just thankful to have this outlet. As I stated before, tomorrow is a new day and I am willing to make it work.