Something Has to Give

I have decided to this and do it right.  Being a member of the YMCA is a benefit.  Now the only thing to do is use my membership.  With that being said, go to the Y at least 2 times a week.  The classes are awesome and I am really looking forward to going.  It's a matter of taking the time out to do that.  It's a plus because they offer day care within my fee.  This gives him an opportunity to interact with other kids and learn some skills all at the same time.

Being 9 months postpartum has been something different.  The body changes, emotions all over the place, getting used to being a mother, have taken a toll on this 39 year old body.  Plus, I started taking iron pills and I feel completely different.  On top of taking my thyroid medicine.  I got this under control.

Having a new lease on life is something completely different.  What I need to do is this.  Take my thyroid medicine and iron pills daily.  Once my iron pills run out, go to the doctor and get a prescription.  I think I need that in my life.  Do a variety of classes at the Y, go swimming when the weather permits and get my life back.  Just because I'm an older mom, cancer survivor, and 9 months postpartum doesn't mean that my life has to change.  All that needs to be done is get my life in order and focus on what's important and that is my health and my babies.  I have to be healthy to make sure I take care of him and give him all that he needs.

Yoga, 30/30, rpm, swimming, walking, stairs, this will be my exercises.  Plus, add more iron into my diet.  This will make it better.  Now, I don't need to focus on the weight loss, but a healthy lifestyle.  Overall, getting under 200lbs is important, I know it will take time, but I am focused to make it work.

The Story of My Life

I'm always hungry, always hungry and there is nothing that I can do about that.  Always hungry.  Is it the breastfeeding or where I am in my life.  Always hungry.  Healthy snacks, healthy foods, what are those?  No matter what, I'm always hungry.  I weigh 205 lbs.  I get it, I had a baby 8 months ago and it took time to put the weight on and it's going to take time to get it off.  What do I do to make this happen?  

Change my eating habits
Exercise with the baby (do something, instead of nothing)
Not worry about this weight thing

I am in a 14 and they are kinda tight, my top size is xl, for real.  Where they do that at?  I'm not stretching like I should.  When I get off, all I want to do is lay down.  No energy for anything.

My plan
Go to Lake Bottom at least twice a week and do the stairs
Go to the Y at least twice a week and do the elliptical for 15 to 20 minutes.  Get in the sauna for 20 minutes.  When the weather breaks go swimming at least once or twice a week.
Stop feeling sorry for myself and make it happen.

Yes, it's baby weight, but it has to go.   Something has to give.  Get this monkey off my back and get this weight off of me.  I have 4 more months of breastfeeding and maybe my hunger will pass.  We will have to see.

Breastfeeding SMH

I am so glad to be able to do this for my baby, but for me there's a down side.  I'm always hungry.  I don't know how much I weigh, being afraid to weigh myself.  I'm clueless.  There's never enough food for me.  Always hungry is my thing.  I can eat morning, noon, and night.  The problem is making healthy food choices.  It doesn't matter as long as I eat.  While pregnant sweets entered my life.  Now, I can eat them whenever I want.  Never full, isn't an option.  5 more months of breastfeeding and I'm done.  There has to be something better.  When I change my eating habits my supply drops.  Kind of caught between a rock and a hard place.

Venting that's all.  Looking for alternatives to make this thing work.  A plus, I can fit my size 12 pants, my stomach is the issue.  I get it took time to gain it, but now I have to lose it.