What is it Going to Take

Weight: 177 lbs.

Proud, but What is it Going to Take?
Again, I have been here time and time again. I am tired of this. This being the ups and downs in the weightloss game. I am the key element in this endeavor. Food is a weakness for me, but sometimes it is worse then others. Honestly, I just want to get to my goal and get it over with. I feel like John at John is Fit when he wrote about being the Worst Weightloss Blogger. I started this because I thought it would help me in losing weight, but I have been up and down like a see saw and it is getting old. The temptation has to come to an end.

Every morning when I get up, I dreaded getting on the scale. It is a burden and sometimes a release. It makes me feel great when I have actually lost 1-2 lbs. On the other hand when I have gone up it is major disappointment. I rejoice in the loss and get emotional with the gain. I really don't know why because I truly can tell when I will gain or loss. It depends on what I have eaten and how much. It doesn't even take exercise for you to lose. I don't want this blog to be only about my low points because they aren't low all the time. It just saddens me when I have been here several times. I have to make a change, it is getting old and I am so far behind my goal date of March 31, what it is going on another month. What am I going to do?

Food
sausage and bacon
baked pork chop, broccoli with cheese, and baked potatoe
a little chicken and rice
Zaxby's grilled chicken salad with french dressing

Exercise
None

Learning from other Bloggers
I found John Is Fit and it has helped me realize that I am not alone. He lists many strategies in losing and gaining the weight, but overall he is very motivating. He has a list of other weightloss bloggers. I haven't gone to all of their sites, but I have checked out Down with Fat. This blog is about a man and women and what they go through to lose weight. I really like some of their ideas. One thing I am going to adopt is they have a break down of their rewards when they get to a certain weight. I think that is a good idea.

Always know you are not alone. You can do it. I am not going to say it will be easy because it won't. Free will is a main factor, but as long as you put your all into it, you will reap positive rewards. Even though I haven't gotten to my 165 lbs. I am no longer 190, that is success within itself. Be thankful for the little things, they lead to big ones.

Here I Go Again

Weight: 178 lbs.

As the Days Go By
As the days go by, there are moments where my appetite is greater than others. I know what to contribute it too, but it is just a way of life. The weekends tend to be a breaker for me. I do well Monday-Thursday, but Friday-Sunday is always a downward slide. There are strategies that I can adopt to help me be successful, but as always I don't know where to begin. I'll say I can do it, but that word sabatoge does often appear.

Weigh Less
Honestly, I thought that I would have weighed more, but I don't. Let's see, keeping things in the manner that they are 13 lbs. to go. It seems so simple, but yet so hard.

Exercise What is That?
I haven't been exercising haven't felt like it. My clothes are fitting a little different. The jeans that I bought weekend before last aren't as tight as they were when I bought them. Any progress is better then none.

Stay Focused
All I have to do is keep the main thing the main thing. I am tired of being at this point, I want there to be less of me. I am proud of what I have accomplished, but it seems like a never ending battle. Somewhat of an obsession. One thing I can say is that looking at other weightloss blogs, this is something that goes on. Easy to put it on, but hard to take it off. I will continue to read what others have to say and know that I am not alone. The sad thing about it is that I really don't have that much weight to lose, but again it is so hard.

Food
1 sausage link
sausage ziti
1 1/2 baked porkchop with bread crumbs, broccoli and cheese, red baked potatoe

Exercise
None

Things are What you Make Them
Things are what you make them. I always say that, but I need to do more then say it I need to start living it. This weightloss thing can drive anyone crazy, but a good thing is that there are people that are doing and going through the same things. I am not alone. You are not either. Take one day at a time and know you will weigh less. Start with baby steps. Once a day eat a salad for lunch (substitute). Park farther away at the grocery store. Instead of putting mayonnaise on your sandwhich just use mustard. These are small steps that will work. It is up to you to make a change. Do that starting today!

Losing is Half the Battle

Weight: 177 lbs.

I came down due to following my guidelines yesterday. I am proud. I know that you are supposed to eat, but when you are full from a previous meal what to do? I didn't eat dinner yesterday due to all of what I ate for lunch. I stopped and bought some chicken broth to drink, but I didn't need it because I was still full. I am proud of that. I have been here several times and I sabatoge myself often. This is what I am striving to not do this time. This time will be different I promise to myself. You know it is so easy to let yourself down. I wonder why that is so. Disappointment should not be my friend, but I know it very well. I think we need to discontinue our relationship. It only leads to heartache and pain. I don't need that at this point in my life. Moving forward is my biggest concern. Happiness will be my new friend.

Food
1 boiled egg and 1 slice of bacon
chili over rice and mixed vegetables
rice mixed vegetables with shrimp
thin slice of chocolate cake

Exercises
70 scissors
10 lunges with 10 lb. weights
various arm exercises
30 leg lifts with pilates ball
push ups on pilates ball
stretches
30 butt lifts

As always, as the day continue I will post more. Have a wonderful day! Day what you can with what you have. Be positive and positivity will follow. You deserve to be the best you possible. Don't hold on, let it go, it will be alright.

Celebrations
eyebrows waxed
10 minute massage in mall

How I Really Feel
I feel wonderful. I know I can be successful, it is just a matter of doing what is best for my overall health. As always, I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I feel that I need to do more, but there is no but it is a matter of staying focused and doing what is right. Tomorrow is another day and regardless of what it may bring I know that I can achieve my goals. If I don't lose, I will be disappointed but it is not the end of the world.

Slowly Coming Off

Weight: 177 lbs.

Yesterday's weight: 177.4 lbs.

Yesterday's food:
house lomein
dried mango
thin mint cookies

Yesterday's Exercises:
bicep curls
more arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Celebrations:
went out to eat with friend
saw people haven't seen in a while
talked with aunt, haven't talked with her in about a year

I am going to take one day at a time. This weight loss thing is a matter of cause and effect. I realize that and I know that I will be sucessful. Didn't meet my 165 by the end of March, that's alright. I have still lived to see another day. I have to be mindful of my decisions about food and not overeat.

Today is another day. Do what I will put be respectful of myself!

I Think Success was My Friend Today

Weight: 177 lbs.

The day was good. My teeth hurt. New wire and power chain for braces, so my mouth hurts. All of the food that I have eaten today has been soft. I don't know how long my mouth is going to hurt, but I am going to seize the moment.

Food
potatoes, grits, eggs, 2 sausage links
chicken salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, 1 boiled egg, 1 slice of bacon)
1/2 piece tilapia, mixed vegetables, mashed potatoes

Exercises
40 scissors
40 minute walk and stairs
10 back kicks
10 side kicks

Overall, things are good! We will see what the morning brings.

I Really Don't Know

Good evening! The day started out wonderful. My weight this morning was 177.4 lbs. That is 1 lb. below where I was yesterday. Of course, the day went on and things occurred. I will have to see what the morning brings.

Today's Food
1 boiled egg 1 slice of bacon

Honey and Oates bar

shrimp broccoli and pinwheel pasta

2 servings Spaghetti and green beans

Too Much Spaghetti
The two helpings of spaghetti was to much. Instead of two helpings of spaghetti, I should have had more green beans and a smaller portion of spaghetti. It's over with now, no need to worry about past decisions. My belly feels as if I may have over eaten. I am not too sure. When I got home I did a little workout. I may need to do some more, but I don't know right now.

Exercises
60 scissors
20 squats with 10 lb. weights
5 minutes bike trainer
10 back kicks with both legs
10 side leg lifts both legs
various arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Sabotage is the Set Up
Sleepy is currently my friend. My mind is telling me that I need to do something else, like ride my bike or some sit ups or something, but I just don't feel like it. That is sad. Is this self sabotage? It may be, why am I afraid of success? Not only is this a weight thing, this also filters into other aspects of my life.

Last night I went to bed hungry, tonight I am going to bed full. Will there ever be a happy medium?

Tomorrow is another day. I have to get up on time. When the alarm goes off I have to get a move on it. I will start fixing breakfast as soon as I get up.

Tomorrow's Meals
I probably will have an egg and slice of bacon for lunch. If I get up in time I may cook a chicken breast and cut up some lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers for a chicken salad (that's light). Dinner may consist of tilapia, mixed vegetables, and potatoes. It just depends on what the day brings.

Motivation Do I have that?
Motivation is one of my key problems. This gives me a venue to talk about my personal concerns, let downs, triumphs, exercises, food menus, and other things dealing with my health and weight. I am just thankful to have this outlet. As I stated before, tomorrow is a new day and I am willing to make it work.