I've Been Here Before

Weight: 175.8 lb.

Proud, but doesn't Seem That Way
Not exactly at this weight, but lower than before. I am proud of my accomplishments. I am overjoyed with excitement, but my behavior doesn't show it. My mood does not seem as if I have lost anything. To be honest, I really don't know what the problem is. I think I may just be tired. Tired mentally and physically, but more so mentally.

Current Meal Plan
My food intake for the day was alright, not as good as it could be. I did an analysis of what is going on. Remember, I spoke of sabatoge a few blogs ago. It has reared its ugly head. My goal is so close, but o so far away. I will list what I ate and you will see what I am speaking of.

Food
2 slices of bacon
chili dog
2 Church's thighs
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

As I type, I am cooking dinner.
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

Question
Now the question of the day is do I eat what I have cooked or do I save it for tomorrow? Yes, I did eat and it was good. I ate the entire breast, some asparagus, and 1/3 of the sweet potatoe. On top of all that I don't feel good. I will not talk about that, but it is the truth.

Looking at my meal plan for the last week, I have been eating a lot of rice that has to change. More vegetables to my plan.

Weighing myself tomorrow may not happen. I don't need to be disappointed. I did it to myself I know, but still. It seems the weekend is always my downfall. Let the sabotage go!

Coming Down, but will It Continue?

Weight: 179 lbs.

Yesterday
Yesterday was a decent day, like I stated, I did eat too many chili dogs, but I am ok with that. The exercise that I did was well deserved and I am glad that I did it. I guess I could have rode my bike trainer longer, but at least I rode it, right?

Today
Today, I don't know what I will eat, but I think I have it under control. There are some chili dogs left. That is what I will eat for lunch, but I have brought rice and mixed vegetables too. That should work out.

When I get home. Bike trainer and more exercises. I may do a video it just depends on how I feel.

Food
1 boiled egg and slice of bacon
mixed vegetables with rice, 2 hot dogs with chili (no buns), fries, 3 slices of boston butt (small)

This was too much for lunch! I can see that! I don't know what or if I will eat dinner. If I do eat, it may just be broth or something light. I will have to see. Ok, I will not eat anything for dinner. Chicken or vegetable broth will be the food for the evening. I can do this.

I did what I said I was going to do. I didn't eat when I got home. Stopped by the store and bought the chicken broth, but I didn't drink it. See I can do good.

Exercises
35 scissors
20 lunges with 10 lb. weights
arm exercises (I will specify later)
30 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
15 leg raises

Challenges
The challenge of the day is doing what is best for my body. Things happen, but having a healthy lifestyle can prevent some of the illnesses that may occur.

As the day progresses like yesterday I will make adjustments to this post.

Overall, I know that what I eat today was not as healthy as it could have been. Temptation leads to weakness and indulgence.

Celebrations
I didn't eat when I got home. I know you need to eat, but I was full from what I ate for lunch. Regardless of the morning weight, I am going to get my eyebrows waxed when I get off. That will be a good treat, I may get accupuncture too. Will just have to see what the day brings.

Spring Break is Over

I was sick for the beginning of Spring Break (Saturday-Thursday). I am not at 100%, but I am much better. We went to Atlanta for the weekend. That was fun, but during my illness I ate like I wasn't sick. That is ashamed, I know. On top of that I watched on the History Channel, The Seven Deadly. Gluttony was one of the ones I caught. It really made sense to me. Over eating is not healthy and can cause several issues. I don't want to get caught up in that. I know that we are all closer to dying, but it doesn't have to be food related.

During my sickness of course I didn't do any exercising. I weighed myself the other day and I was 177 lbs. That's not that bad.

Celebrations

bought a pair of Old Navy jeans size 14 long

bought a green tube dress

bought a rain coat

Food

bacon eggs and grits

lasagna

Wendy's chicken nuggets, small fries, bacon cheese burger, and chocolate frosty

noodles with 2 hot dogs

I will not talk about what I ate over the weekend.

Weight

182.4 lbs

Tomorrow starts another day that I will be successful. There are many things that I have to get done tomorrow. Organize in my mind what is important, discipline myself, and get things done. I am my worst enemy and I will work on solving that issue. I have lost weight now it is up to me to continue to do what is best for my body.

Tomorrow's Menu

boiled egg 2 pieces of bacon and a V8

100 calorie Progresso Chicken Noodle Soup

Shrimp, vegetables, and rice

Tomorrow's Exercises

10 lb. weights arms

bike trainer

stretch

50 squats

50 leg raises

I know when I look at myself I should be proud of what and who I am, but I am not. I know I could do so much better, but the problem lies with me. Self worth is what I need to focus on. I have so many positive things going on in my world. Why can't I be accepting of them and be satisfied with my outer appearance? I guess I hold myselft up in high esteem. My body has gone through changes, but it is easy to give up that is being slothful. I will get it together. Body image is something that concerns me seriously. I will take myself seriously and do what I can with what I have.

I feel like I go up and down like a roller coaster. At what point does it stop? I guess only I can answer that question.

Slowly Coming Off

Weight: 177 lbs.

Yesterday's weight: 177.4 lbs.

Yesterday's food:
house lomein
dried mango
thin mint cookies

Yesterday's Exercises:
bicep curls
more arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Celebrations:
went out to eat with friend
saw people haven't seen in a while
talked with aunt, haven't talked with her in about a year

I am going to take one day at a time. This weight loss thing is a matter of cause and effect. I realize that and I know that I will be sucessful. Didn't meet my 165 by the end of March, that's alright. I have still lived to see another day. I have to be mindful of my decisions about food and not overeat.

Today is another day. Do what I will put be respectful of myself!

I did it to Myself

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

There is Still Less of Me

The weight thing is really getting on my last nerves. Yesterday, I didn't overeat I know, but I gained the weight back. Thinking of what I did wrong, I really can't decide on where there was a problem. Was it the mashed potatoes, the black eyed peas. I really don't know, but this morning when I weighed myself I was 178 lb. What happened? This is strange. I haven't been exercising like I was supposed too, but I have been eating right.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
chicken & artichoke lean pocket
rice & mixed vegetables
2 chili dogs

Exercise
40 scissors
arm exercising using 10 lb. weights
25 leg lefts with Pilates ball

As always, will have to see what the morning brings. I wanted to get some Captain D's, but I didn't. Weakness is sometimes an issue. Must move on from that. Am I really working toward my goal of weight loss? Do I need to up my exercise? I think I do.

Up and downs are always my friend. The morning will be here soon! Move on and do what I can with what I have.

Did I do the Right Thing Today?

Weight: 176 lbs.

Meals
0 point Progresso soup
1/2 piece tilapia & 2 servings of mashed potatoes
1/2 cheese burger f& fries
spaghetti

Exercises
40 scissors
30 leg raises
stretches
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Occurances
The day started out normal. Stopped at Piggly Wiggly and bought my breakfast, 0 point Progresso vegetable soup. There were donuts, did I get one, no I didn't. I was proud of that, but I had coffee instead. So which one was worse? Lunch was good. After school, I went to a track meet, that is where I had the fast food. I know. I wasn't hungry when I got home, but I had to eat the spaghetti.

My prediction, is I may go up some, but only the morning can tell. With the workout, I don't know if it will be enough to lose weight, but it will assist with toning. I should have done some squats, but I didn't feel up to it.

I was excited about what I accomplished and today I may have blown it. I am still in the running though. The morning will be here soon, that will be the determining factor.