I've Been Here Before

Weight: 175.8 lb.

Proud, but doesn't Seem That Way
Not exactly at this weight, but lower than before. I am proud of my accomplishments. I am overjoyed with excitement, but my behavior doesn't show it. My mood does not seem as if I have lost anything. To be honest, I really don't know what the problem is. I think I may just be tired. Tired mentally and physically, but more so mentally.

Current Meal Plan
My food intake for the day was alright, not as good as it could be. I did an analysis of what is going on. Remember, I spoke of sabatoge a few blogs ago. It has reared its ugly head. My goal is so close, but o so far away. I will list what I ate and you will see what I am speaking of.

Food
2 slices of bacon
chili dog
2 Church's thighs
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

As I type, I am cooking dinner.
baked boneless chicken breast with bread crumbs
asparagus
sweet potatoes
crescent rolls

Question
Now the question of the day is do I eat what I have cooked or do I save it for tomorrow? Yes, I did eat and it was good. I ate the entire breast, some asparagus, and 1/3 of the sweet potatoe. On top of all that I don't feel good. I will not talk about that, but it is the truth.

Looking at my meal plan for the last week, I have been eating a lot of rice that has to change. More vegetables to my plan.

Weighing myself tomorrow may not happen. I don't need to be disappointed. I did it to myself I know, but still. It seems the weekend is always my downfall. Let the sabotage go!

I did it to Myself

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

There is Still Less of Me

The weight thing is really getting on my last nerves. Yesterday, I didn't overeat I know, but I gained the weight back. Thinking of what I did wrong, I really can't decide on where there was a problem. Was it the mashed potatoes, the black eyed peas. I really don't know, but this morning when I weighed myself I was 178 lb. What happened? This is strange. I haven't been exercising like I was supposed too, but I have been eating right.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
chicken & artichoke lean pocket
rice & mixed vegetables
2 chili dogs

Exercise
40 scissors
arm exercising using 10 lb. weights
25 leg lefts with Pilates ball

As always, will have to see what the morning brings. I wanted to get some Captain D's, but I didn't. Weakness is sometimes an issue. Must move on from that. Am I really working toward my goal of weight loss? Do I need to up my exercise? I think I do.

Up and downs are always my friend. The morning will be here soon! Move on and do what I can with what I have.

Did I do the Right Thing Today?

Weight: 176 lbs.

Meals
0 point Progresso soup
1/2 piece tilapia & 2 servings of mashed potatoes
1/2 cheese burger f& fries
spaghetti

Exercises
40 scissors
30 leg raises
stretches
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Occurances
The day started out normal. Stopped at Piggly Wiggly and bought my breakfast, 0 point Progresso vegetable soup. There were donuts, did I get one, no I didn't. I was proud of that, but I had coffee instead. So which one was worse? Lunch was good. After school, I went to a track meet, that is where I had the fast food. I know. I wasn't hungry when I got home, but I had to eat the spaghetti.

My prediction, is I may go up some, but only the morning can tell. With the workout, I don't know if it will be enough to lose weight, but it will assist with toning. I should have done some squats, but I didn't feel up to it.

I was excited about what I accomplished and today I may have blown it. I am still in the running though. The morning will be here soon, that will be the determining factor.