Spring Break is Over

I was sick for the beginning of Spring Break (Saturday-Thursday). I am not at 100%, but I am much better. We went to Atlanta for the weekend. That was fun, but during my illness I ate like I wasn't sick. That is ashamed, I know. On top of that I watched on the History Channel, The Seven Deadly. Gluttony was one of the ones I caught. It really made sense to me. Over eating is not healthy and can cause several issues. I don't want to get caught up in that. I know that we are all closer to dying, but it doesn't have to be food related.

During my sickness of course I didn't do any exercising. I weighed myself the other day and I was 177 lbs. That's not that bad.

Celebrations

bought a pair of Old Navy jeans size 14 long

bought a green tube dress

bought a rain coat

Food

bacon eggs and grits

lasagna

Wendy's chicken nuggets, small fries, bacon cheese burger, and chocolate frosty

noodles with 2 hot dogs

I will not talk about what I ate over the weekend.

Weight

182.4 lbs

Tomorrow starts another day that I will be successful. There are many things that I have to get done tomorrow. Organize in my mind what is important, discipline myself, and get things done. I am my worst enemy and I will work on solving that issue. I have lost weight now it is up to me to continue to do what is best for my body.

Tomorrow's Menu

boiled egg 2 pieces of bacon and a V8

100 calorie Progresso Chicken Noodle Soup

Shrimp, vegetables, and rice

Tomorrow's Exercises

10 lb. weights arms

bike trainer

stretch

50 squats

50 leg raises

I know when I look at myself I should be proud of what and who I am, but I am not. I know I could do so much better, but the problem lies with me. Self worth is what I need to focus on. I have so many positive things going on in my world. Why can't I be accepting of them and be satisfied with my outer appearance? I guess I hold myselft up in high esteem. My body has gone through changes, but it is easy to give up that is being slothful. I will get it together. Body image is something that concerns me seriously. I will take myself seriously and do what I can with what I have.

I feel like I go up and down like a roller coaster. At what point does it stop? I guess only I can answer that question.

Slowly Coming Off

Weight: 177 lbs.

Yesterday's weight: 177.4 lbs.

Yesterday's food:
house lomein
dried mango
thin mint cookies

Yesterday's Exercises:
bicep curls
more arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Celebrations:
went out to eat with friend
saw people haven't seen in a while
talked with aunt, haven't talked with her in about a year

I am going to take one day at a time. This weight loss thing is a matter of cause and effect. I realize that and I know that I will be sucessful. Didn't meet my 165 by the end of March, that's alright. I have still lived to see another day. I have to be mindful of my decisions about food and not overeat.

Today is another day. Do what I will put be respectful of myself!

Weight loss What Does it Really Mine

Weight loss to me is a serious issue. No matter whether you are big or small, weight loss can affect you. In my eyes, weight loss can be a positive or negative. It is a something that shouldn't be taken lightly. Do what you can with what you have. The little things count.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
v8
2 turkey burgers with cheese 1 with mustard the other mustard and salsa
5 barbeque chips
5 fried wingettes and fries
coffee

Exercise
30 lunges
40 squats with 10 lb. weights
stretches
10 minutes bike trainer
20 leg raises
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Motivation, Do I have it?
I need to ride my bike, but I don't feel like it. What I will do is stretch. What will the morning bring? As always, I will have to see.

Celebrations
Got my eyebrows waxed. That was something that I deserved.
Riding my bike is a celebration too. Thank you that I can do that. This is something I tell myself so I can do just that. Will let you know if I rode my bike or not.

I did it to Myself

Weight: 181.2 lbs.

I admit, I did it to myself. There are some things not to be discussed and this is one of them, but I truly understand why I put on the 4 extra pounds and I didn't do anything more. Well, in respect of that I was overeating for the last couple of weeks. No exercising no nothing, just eating and sleeping. That is it! Has the determination left? I am to far in the game to actually do better. My mind set has been distorted? Really the problem lays in me. I am the only one that can fix this dilema.

Food
V8
0 point Progresso soup added vegetables and rice
2 fried drumsticks
1 turkey burger with cheese and salsa

Exercise
50 squats
10 minutes bike trainer
10 lunges
arm exercises with 10 lb weights

Laziness will not bring forth Results
Honestly, I don't feel like doing anything. Just putting that out there. There will not be any results without action. That I do understand.

Everyday, I say, I am going to do better, but there is something that I want. Break that bad habit. I have cooked for the next few days. There is always tomorrow. Here I go off to do my exercises, maybe I can burn off a chicken leg or the turkey burger something is always good.

I can see the extra 7 lbs. That is sad, but talking about it is not going to make it go away.

There is Still Less of Me

The weight thing is really getting on my last nerves. Yesterday, I didn't overeat I know, but I gained the weight back. Thinking of what I did wrong, I really can't decide on where there was a problem. Was it the mashed potatoes, the black eyed peas. I really don't know, but this morning when I weighed myself I was 178 lb. What happened? This is strange. I haven't been exercising like I was supposed too, but I have been eating right.

Weight: 178 lbs.

Food
chicken & artichoke lean pocket
rice & mixed vegetables
2 chili dogs

Exercise
40 scissors
arm exercising using 10 lb. weights
25 leg lefts with Pilates ball

As always, will have to see what the morning brings. I wanted to get some Captain D's, but I didn't. Weakness is sometimes an issue. Must move on from that. Am I really working toward my goal of weight loss? Do I need to up my exercise? I think I do.

Up and downs are always my friend. The morning will be here soon! Move on and do what I can with what I have.

Did I do the Right Thing Today?

Weight: 176 lbs.

Meals
0 point Progresso soup
1/2 piece tilapia & 2 servings of mashed potatoes
1/2 cheese burger f& fries
spaghetti

Exercises
40 scissors
30 leg raises
stretches
arm exercises with 10 lb. weights

Occurances
The day started out normal. Stopped at Piggly Wiggly and bought my breakfast, 0 point Progresso vegetable soup. There were donuts, did I get one, no I didn't. I was proud of that, but I had coffee instead. So which one was worse? Lunch was good. After school, I went to a track meet, that is where I had the fast food. I know. I wasn't hungry when I got home, but I had to eat the spaghetti.

My prediction, is I may go up some, but only the morning can tell. With the workout, I don't know if it will be enough to lose weight, but it will assist with toning. I should have done some squats, but I didn't feel up to it.

I was excited about what I accomplished and today I may have blown it. I am still in the running though. The morning will be here soon, that will be the determining factor.